mA tH0uGhtS n fEeLinGs oF LyFe aS a TeEnAgEr

2006-02-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY WILL BE THE LAST OF HTTP://KRAZIE_ICE.BLOGSPOT.COM

I JUST NEED SOME TYME OFF THE BLOGGING WORLD.

((: MAYBE, I'LL BE BACK.
AND I SAID MAYBE, GET ME?
HEH.

AND STUPID FRIENDSTER IS FCUKING LAGGY SIA.
CB. ARRRGGHHHHH. GERAM GUE.
NO MATTER WHUT, IT DESERVES A SPRING CLEANING.

OK THE END.

2006-02-03T15:54:00.000+08:00

3rd February '06

woke up at 1pm today... ahahaa. yup.
because i fell asleep at abt 4am yesterday while reading a book.

damn. i need to go to the library and borrow some books.
i need books before bedtyme and to occupy my boredom.
so yeah. prolly i'll ask ibu to come along or sumthing.

baby, u lightened me up today.
for that one message.
i love u too.
smuackx.

one more thing,
i miss thebestfriends.
lyn, alift and bada[iza].
misssssssiiiinnnnggg...
mane lahh korg... aku rindu korg gilur babi...

blog again laterrrrrrrrrrrr~

2nd February '06

had arnold's crispy, juicy, hot, chicken drumlets for late dinner
with the king and qween and friends at mccafe.

was at town frm noon.
accompanied kakyan for her lil' retail therapy.
and the friends were kind enough to chill with us.
waited for abg ajii to arrive frm werk and off we went, home.

funny tyme running here and there as we needed the loo.
hahahax. and then had to catch bus65.
ran again. and they said i was lyke acting baywatch or sumthing.
ahhh puhlease. my scrunchie slipped off my hair okayyy.
and the wind was practically blowing my hair lah.

toots.
keeekkuukiiikeee.
so yesterday i was the little girl cum little sister.
thankyou all who made my day.

(:

1st February '06

approximately half an hour ago, i had something to blog about.
and approximately half an hour later, i can't remember anything about it.
talk about being forgetful. at tymes. blearghhh

and oh wow. it's february already.
haha. valentine's day is coming.
and i wish. and i wish. and i wish.
and i SO wish. sighhhhh.

whut shall i get fer the king and qween and ina and kaknoi
for the gift exchanging session?
hehehehee. you'll see ok lovelies.

anyways, my favourite MSN chatter for the month of January is
Miss Natasa Liyana.
yes dear junior. it's you. wahahheeheehuhhhuuu.
because chatting with you have always been fun and yeahhh..
fortunately i can spill my feelings out to you and get pretty good advices in return.
yeah. you're my favourite 15year old girl now okayeee! (:

i was seriously stoning just now when america's next top model was on teevee.
ahahahaa. i fergot that today IS wednesday.
and so, goodbye to just now's episode.

i need to have my room noticeboard fully done man.
shucks. isha can you please dun be such a lazy ass!?
SMACKS.FOREHEAD!
the truth is, i ain't lazy, i just can't be bothered with the printer sumtymes.
yeah especially, when the paper gets stuck and all. damn it.

it's more to boredom land nowadays.
feel the need to hangout with people
but people ain't so free, unlyke me.
and that sumtymes, i want to go out but,
sumhow my intention is taken aback.
thinking of my babysis. and my dearest ibu.
(: a to the w to the w to the w to the dots.

ARGGGHHHHHH.
CHINGAY IS COMING!
am excited! yeaayyy.
hopeful to watch alift and bada & myanaksdare
dance dance dance malay dance.
heeeee. mesti cute. ohohohohohoh.
((: nak gi friday nyer ke saturday eh?
hmmmm. camner camner?
knock knock. who's there?

anyways, happy birthday to ridhwan of therepeatoffenders
and the BLOGfriend, ken haris.
may ur lives be blessed with happiness and good health throughout.

Imagine this world

Right where you want it to be

On the perfect spot in the galaxy

And under your influence.

Imagine me

Right where you want me to be

At the house you've been living in

And next to you as you sleep.

Just imagine.

2006-01-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

sumtymes lyfe gets turned upside down. and you feel that you're suffocating in a completely different world. with totally mixed up feelings. and suddenly yourself gets so messed up. and how are you supposed to deal with this?

and the answer is:

i'm figurin' it out myself.

firstly,
selamat menyambut tahun baru to all muslims.
1427. brand new year, brand new start, religiously.
whut i have set for myself, the resolutions,
i hope to keep them all up.
solat. solat. solat. dun miss. hopefully. (: hahs.
yeah. that's it.

Yesterday.

town was ghastly. "ghost town"; the exact word to describe it.
mostly all the shops were closed.
imagine fareast, escalators not working, lights switched off.
and lido, only the highest level was packed,
people came either to watch a movie, or erm, to consume food.
so yeah.

and esplanade. oh my god-ly crowded.
turn here and there, everywhere, chinese. (:
hurhur. some chinese new year carnival etc. was goin on.
the atmosphere was kinda hectic along the pathways leading to raffles place.
and my favourite bridge was crowded too. eeeyeeerrr.
bright lights shining everywhere you see.
hahax. and we were dumbstruck for a lil'while, yana, sha & me.
firecrackers = fireworks = NOT! ahahhaa. three second dumbos.

saw auni & jannah and their i don't know who guyfriends.
talked with those two gurlies, my ex-classmates.
ahhh. missing those tymes in class.
well i think, they're happy now with diff ite's and new friends.
at least sumthing. ahaahahahahahaa. ahahahah!
snap a pic and off i went.

din't really had our usual photoshoot.
sha refused to pose that much.
and yana with her different expressions.
and me, always being the usual SMILEY me;
highs and lows, ups and downs, just smile.
trust me, you'll be just fine.

(:

seaweed! ahah.

this little girl here is missin' all her dollys and dollas.
note to self: i need THE dailydosage.
so please. have a thought, remember the little sister.
giant giant, buy for isha and ina and the dollys and dollas seaweeds uh.
nnti kiter makan share2 kat windy. boleh?

and the moonlight;

is missin' her sunshine muchos loads.

all the things we used to do,

all the tymes just me and you...

it's not whut i feel for you

it's whut i don't feel for

anyone but you.

2006-01-29T10:50:00.000+08:00

happy birthday dear beshtie. seventeen already. enjoy the day while you can. may all your wishes and dreams come true. and may happiness be with you and the ones you love. i've missed you so. hope to meet you soon. you rock babe!!

hearts manymany(((:

my sayang bestfriend found herself a new sweetheart already huh. a-w-w-w-w-w-w with a lot of dotssssss...... heee. i apologise fer not bein able to join you guys yesterday.. shall do so next tyme aiite. ((: ladidar.

aaahs. yesterday, my saturday. dead tiring. too worned out. red red eyes. ahhh. goodness. hit the sheets early and woke up at abt 1+am not realising that i've not signed in to msn the whole day. and was wondering where baby was. watched the man in the iron mask. leonardo nye pasal pe. hahx. but he looked super funny and sumhow ugly lah in that movie. weaknessdotcom lah. hmmmmm.

it's weird how i was imagining things for a sudden while last night, imagined that i drowned and no one was there to help me. stupid imaginations. trapwater whutever shiznat. or maybe my purpose was to kill abt 5mins of my tyme. advertisements semua merepek can. everyday the same ads. kalau watch movie no ads kan best. wahliaoehh.

asz you make me addicted to alot of songs. and ina, i feel lyk dancing with you everytyme you start to shake your butt when you blast groovy hits. whut the. and listening to real hardcore metal i mean really really hardcore ain't that sick no more. uh'huh. i want a full strength gathering please?

goodness. my baby's sick. get well soon B. loveyou.

2006-01-28T08:21:00.000+08:00

cheeky smile. GOODMORNING EVERYBODY! have a nyce chillout great saturday(((:

2006-01-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

adapted frm asz's past LJ entry..

READon & Understand this.

worth the tyme & be prepared for a headache.

lol.

Four people you will meet in life

Life is the process of finding love;

every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you.

Second person is the one you love most.

Third person is the one who love you most.

And the fourth is the one you spend the rest
of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you
love most, and learn how love feels.
Because you know how love feels, so you
can find the person who loves you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of
loving others and being loved, you will then know
what it is you need most.

Then you will find the person who is most
suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest
of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are
usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn't love you.

The one, who love you most,is never the one
you love most.

And the one you spend your life with, is never
the one you love most or the one who love
you
most.
She is just the person who happens to be at
the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people's life?
No person will purposely have a change of
heart.

At the point in time when she loves you, she
really loves you.
But when she doesn't love you anymore, she
really doesn't love you anymore.
When she loves you, she can't pretend that
she doesn't.
Same goes, when she loves you no more,
there's no way she can pretend she loves you.
When a person doesn't love you and wants to
leave you,
You must ask yourself if you still love her,
If you also don't love her anymore, do not
keep her just to save your pride.
If you still love her, you should wish her
happiness,and hope that she will be with the
one she loves most, not stop her from it.
If you stop her from finding true happiness
with the one she loves,it shows you already don't
love her.
And if you don't love her, what rights do you
have to blame her for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive.
If you like the moon, you can't just take it
down and put it in your basin,
But the moonlight still shines upon you.

In other words, when you love a person, you
can use another method of possessing the
person.
Let her become a permanent memory in you
life.

If you really love a person,you must love her
for what she is.
Love her for her good points, and the bad,
You can't wish for her to become like what
you like her to be just because you love her.
If she can't change to become what you like
her to be, you don't love her anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot
find a reason why you love her,
You only know that no matter when and
where,good mood or bad mood,you will wish to
have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through
the toughest problems without asking for
promises or listing criterias.

In a relationship, you have to put in effort and
give in at times,not always be on the
receiving
end.

Being away from each other is a type of test,
If the relationship isn't strong, then you can
only admit defeat.

Real love will never become hate.
When two people are in love,
They love to ask each other to swear,to
make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and
promise?
Because they don't trust each other,they
don't trust their lover.

These swear and promises are useless;
"Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love
for you will never change!"
We all know that the sky will never fall; the
ocean will never dry.
Even if it does happen,are we still alive by
then?

Be careful when making promises; don't
make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen,
because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it
casually.
Remember, "Swearing by things that can
never
happen are the most touching!!"

In a relationship, what you say is one thing,
but what you do is another;
The one saying,doesn't believe;
the one listening,also doesn't believe.

Which person have you found so far?

In the world so big, which person have you
found?

And who has found you?

2006-01-26T16:31:00.000+08:00

since the father decided to switch off the internet early, ughhhhh, i spent the whole four hours last night, from 1am to 4am, excitedly transferring the old songs from old mp3 cds that i burnt to the computer back. note the excitedly. hahx. guess the fever is back. am tired of listening to the same old songs everyday. and it seems that every song that i heard is whut people all around me are busy listening to, or just started or whutever. it just spreads, you know. and it's always the same genre with the headbangs, the scream-alongs and the feeling to jump up and down every tyme each particular song starts to rock your tyme through.

went to meet kakyan and kaknoi at suntec yesterday. the first tyme me and ina got lost at b1. cb. eventually, we entered the wrong entrance lah. feeling blur kejap. ahah. ape seiii. another embarassing situation at LJS bugis before that. wah liao. really blur block day. finally got my mp3 back frm kakyan. missed it so much seh. ahah.

alryte then, after that, went back to tampines. met up with nabilah.shikin.faris&ahmad at tm. blabliblu. went junk food shopping at FairPriceNtuc. whut to do... shared a packet of 25 seaweeds with ina. wakakakkakakaaa. teringt zaman pri sch scuker mkn seaweed lyke it's a must everyday gitu. am addicted to hershey's cookies and cream bar more and more. damn it.

windy was of course, always windy. slacked around macam biaser. yesterday's topic was whut eh? errrrr. ya. saturday. can't wait, yeay. korang buat ape yang patut while i sit and enjoy sendiri. set eh? hahs. lepas tu ib came and he started this whole kecohhhh thinggy laaa. toot ah. kenapela aku tak gi town semalam? kalau tak, dah nmpk nick.kevin.howie-d.brian&a.j.. ahahahahaha. okay, teringat balek zaman primary school again.

abeh faris started to sing their songs uh basically. dgn muker2 sak. den followed by nabilah and ina with her discman pastu ib joined in.. and i sat there asking them to sing the nyce nyce songs. cute la korang. really. too bad nurse.an.mimi.shikin&ahmad weren't there to join us.

ok anyways, groove on to my new blog song. craig david, oooohh i soooooo heart ur voice man. and shikin, your voice is super duper sweet seh. yeay, we've got a true singer in the club.

"Do You Believe In Love"

Just one day
If I could hold you in my arms
Close to my heart where you belong
Love of my life you really are
Still be showering you with kisses like snow in winter
Remember back in the day we were like best of friends
But we were falling in love we never could pretend
Night after night we used to talk about me and you
The things we'd do together forever?

Do you believe in love?
And the promise that it brings
That you'll never grow apart
Well that's what he said to me
Why did you have to go?
We were inseparable
You and me will always be together for eternity

Just one day
If I could touch your face again
Words can't describe how I'm feeling
If I could turn back the hands of time
I'd still be holding on wishes that you left behind
Remember moments when there was nothing better than
A stroll in the park walking hand in hand
I'll never forget the times we talked about me and you
The things we do together forever

The words you said to me before you slipped away
Are still with me boy to this very day yeah
In everything I do to everything I say
You'll always be the sunshine in my life
And yes I believe in love

Do you believe in love?
And the promise that it brings
That you'll never grow apart
Well that's what he said to me
Why did you have to go?
We were inseparable
You and me will always be together for eternity

2006-01-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

aaaaahhhh. the same old hate taggers.

eh bodo. i dun imitate people okay.

cb. my blog my business ah toot.

other people's phrases and words.. MEANING?????

prove it lah. asal boleh je kau.

ape je org2 nie.

kurang kasih sayang eh?

terlalu boring kat ruma takde ape nak buat?

sebab tu nak kacau kedamaian blog orang?

wahliaoeh.

aiyoooo.

y this kind of people so fcuking sadistic ah?

tsk tsk. kesian man.

ok bye.

2006-01-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

ehh i just realised sumthing. abang and me, sumhow we share the same characteristic and inner self. rather afraid to show whut we really feel. can be a lil' secretive sumtymes. meant to just smile our way through even in any difficulties. hahs. lil'bit undecisive too. uhhh. yaaa.

l-o-l-o-l-o-l-o-V-E!
love is a mystery. love is a fantasy.

oh well
ina is here in my crib ryte now and we just kekek-ed for awhile before about the childhood pictures. there's this one biiiggggg family group photo and arwah nenek was in the picture too. i miss nenek. :( and then there's abg is and abg zai.. so handsome.. hahax. and i wonder where they are now. have not met them for years and years straight already. tsktsk. fun ah tgk gmbr kecik2. i miss being a small small kid. in fact, i am now lah, in terms of height but the fact that i'm seventeen to be this year is lyke.. ahh. semakin umur meningkat, semakin dekat kiter kat liang lahad.

this is lyfe. people change. people come and go. haiz.

B,

that one email isn't meant for me to hurt you. for me to leave you. for me to forget you. never never was it meant to be that way. it's just sumthing that i compiled, to tell you how i feel. if ever you feel unhappy about it, im sorry.

semenjak kau datang di hatiku sayang,
semua resahku hilang.
diriku bukanlah seorang yang mudah
menyerahkan cinta semudah kata.

seperti dulu-exist

2006-01-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

kadang kadang tak semua yang kiter nak tu, kiter dpt. tapi biler kiter nak sesuatu tu, selalunyer kiter try and try sampai kiter fully dapat ape yang kiter nak, kan? tak ker lumrah tu? tapi kenaper even though kiter da try so much, give our one and all, tapi tetap perkara tu remain the same je ah? kenape? tak faham seh. not meant to be eh? ups and downs of lyfe. i know lah. tuhan selalu beri kesusahan yang setiap manusia tu mampu handle dan tau yang mereka akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk hilangkan kesusahan tu. takdir, kan? kiter cadang tapi tuhan yang menentukan.

but if fate was meant to be, and ia da memang sungguh terserlah untuk kiter, kenaper it ends up sooooooooooo very hard to handle uh? tak semua yang kiter nak tu kiter akan dapat dengan sekelip mata kan kan kan.

and im saying this secara UMUM kay. random. .

beh kalau one party jer try so hard tapi kan the other buat macam biaser jer beh macam maner eh gitu?

oh and to certain kawan kawan of mine, kalau teraser, da memang confirm korang la tu, aku buat decision nie sebab aku tau diri aku ok. and it's getting so fcuking irritating biler korg ask the same questions over and over again. at least aku ade priority sendiri bukan aku nak ikot2 org ker suker2 buat ape yg aku nak ape. asal ah korg tak paham? abeh kalau korg ckp korg care, care bukan mcm gini ape. aku tak pernah nak keep bugging korg even though kadang2 korg deserve it... but i never did that ok. because every person ade diorg nye personal lyfe and problems and decisions to make. that's lyfe. understand me for now uh please.

and to this particularly one friend of mine,
people change i guess. you went MIA-ing for so long (ini ker kwn???)
and now you're back...
BUT... for once
i thought i saw something in you. something good. but i was very wrong.
hahs. how stupid can that be?

blogging because i feel lyke blogging this useless entry.

just where were you when i needed sumone to help me to make this decision?

aaarrrrrrr.
tak tau ape nak ckp lagi.
selamat malam semua.

and apart from all this,
i need you kayyyyyyy.
you You YOu YOU.
B. u know i do.

2006-01-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

You ever feel like there's that one person in the world meant just for you? Like no matter how much shit you go through together.. all the separation.. all the tension.. and the terror, that you always fall in love with each other over and over again for a reason? Like that one person that God made for you is right there..yet so far away? Let's say this person and yourself have an undeniable connection. He's the one that after all still makes you weak in the knees. He's the one who makes your heart beat so fast that you feel that it just might stop all together. And just hearing his name..it doesn't even have to be "him", but his name is enough to give you the giggles. The two of you go through so much shit together, but in the end only one thing matters: you still love one another with everything you have.

and therefore,

it has always been you,

s u n s h i n e

i still heart you

(hahs!whenwasthelasttymeicalledyouthat????)

oh well... (dolclubbers,imaginefahmisayinthis,ohwell..) hahaheeheehuhu. today made me realised that it's true. you dolclubbers are one of my ever most important daily dosage already seh. giant giant... biler kiter nak jumpe lagi? and i miss windy!!! aaaaaahhhhhhhh. *secrethandshake* nurse rebond rambut eh nursE? i want see i want see! ok pretty, welcome to the straight hair club! (and dolclub) heheheee. ina, i love seeing you and jeng la. and he's lyke so different with the hairstyle and baju all. ahhahaa. inainainainaina. i look up to you and him laaa. heartsmanymany.

and then...

i dotno whut to blog about. hope the appeal just works la. pleasepleaseplease. i really want it so much now. better get goin. toodle-loo.

2006-01-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

uh. damn exhausted. and tired. plus SLEEPY! and hungry! hahaa. stop it isha.

went to celebrate nurse's bday today with the dols.
= ina.nabilah.shikin.an.mimi.asyraf&finally,nurse! and raveen joined us later.
the ones hu just got their pay treated us makan again. hahs. the crispy noodle sedap kay! heee. terima kasih korang.

and then the ones hu got their pay, AGAIN, went shopping at topman while we the gurls looked out for cute boxers. hahaa.. i gotta mention this, we spent about... an hour in there, i think! ina was helping an choose his baju*s and shikin & nabilah was helping mimi. kekek. by then, my mood died. sorry everybody. i din't noe guys can take a longer tyme to shop then us, gurls.
wah liao ehhhhh.

we din't have any idea of where to head to next, so we settled for temasek poly instead for the jam n hop thingyyy. fun sehhh. thot of dancing around with ina and nurse and nabilah and shikin sekali the hip and cool songs only started when we were lyke.. going off. stupid sia. but it was fun, when flying dutchman hosted the soccer and relationship sumthing sumthing segment. hmmmmmmmmmm.

lepas tu, we went to play pool. at tamp interchange area... that was when me and ina felt lyke dancing already.. cannot tahan.. ina kept shakin her butt, swaying here and there. ahaha. so cute! they were blasting off groovy hits sey. katooott. but anyways, the gurls went off early.

in the bus, miza sms-ed me. ape la that gilur gurl. org on the way home baru nak meet. ahhh. next tyme okie dokie. (:

well here i am, frustrated with this stupid computer just because the system's kinda slow here in abang's room.. where the hell is my abang now? i miss my brother. apart from that, my grandfather is sleepinover and he reminds me of nenek who is waaaaayyyyyyyy over there, in indonesia. :( them both are the only gramps that i have now, you see. so yeah.

my heart seems to struggle for you more and more everyday.
b, always you and i. i miss you. darn whole loads terribly missin' you.

2006-01-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

happy birthday nurse(: click on it!

I've always chosen to live each and every moment to the best,

Forget the rest, come and take a ride with me

Okay I seriously don't know what to blog about but I've been wanting to blog. am gonna go try to make a freakin new layout. that's only IF I get my creative juices pumping.*giggling/giggles* ka-tooottttt.

had the opportunity to sleep real late yesterday, and be able to wake up late again today. and for the next.. count-how-many-days-i'll-be-free. errrrr. haha heehee huhu. chris brown's gimmie that is kiyoot i tell you. and himself, too. hahs. in fact, most of the songs i downloaded frm him are pretty nyce lah. hell got me groovin back. *dances arnd tha bedroom*

anyways, flipped thru the booklet a couple of tymes today. and i've decided whut i want. hopefully i'll get whut i want. then i'll be a happy2 girl again. whoohooo. and the websites are so laggy seeeiiii. so irritating to the fuggin core. toot to the toots.

2/4 of the d'verse solic called me up earlier on. and how come they said i bueyy-ed(howtospell thisshit?!!?) them? stupid k. hell no i din't even promised sia. you all uhhhh. please k. azlinda dear where have you gone too? been busy with school and haven't been contacting me that much. i miss you lyke truckloads, you see. tsk.tsk.tsk.

baby baby i'm missin you so badly!!

Ohh remember yesterday

you were dancing like a picture in my mind,

But only a fool says love is hard to find,

Maybe I'm blind for you baby,

But this time there aint no maybes,

Together we get crazy like the rain that falls upon us

And we are gonna be out of sight,

We are gonna be alright

2006-01-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

i teared when i read syaz's entry. that one sentence. uh. and the tagboard too.
iira dear, i never thought that you will ever miss me. hahs. but well, i guess i din't know, till u told me, so yeah. thanx babe.. do take care of my classmate, which is ur bf, din for me kae kae? he's one nyce guy and one nyce friend. lucky iira kayyy. remember that. may u two last long. (:

met the dols today. the ones important. ina.asz.an.fahmimimi.asyraf.faris&lastly,ib.
i thank ina, for givin me the opportunity to meet them, to be close to them, to be together in tymes of good or bad and also, they have always been there as friends, older than me, to cheer me up, to mention sumthing so touching till i cry, advices... to console each other, to crap with, to do whutever else that friends do together. fun and misery. just now's dolclub session was i guess, the most touching one. have yet to look out for more, but, seeing ina and asz cry lyke i can't really recall how many tymes, it's lyke.... aaaahhhhhh. i realised how friendship is so important and need to be cherished. lyke how asyraf sang the campfire songs to cheer us up... and faris playing the guitar and we all sang a birthday song for asz... and how all of them were so worried for me, and helped me with the decision making... and everything else. thanx dol club. (: heart korang all many many. sewel-ers rocks all the tyme sei. hahs.

it's moments lyke this when i feel the need to express my thoughts. and just scream my lungs out. but wait, rest assured, this blog will need a change. or maybe will be closed soon enough. no, not closed. just some major change? hmmm. so stay tuned.

i'm finally leaving a chapter of my lyfe and i guess, this is whut i want. i've decided. i can't change it. have been striked off even. maybe im wrong in doing so, however i just want to do sumthing else. tyme to stop and no more maybe's and no more whut if's. i just hate the way i live my everyday lyfe since the starting of 2006. i've been missing everyone who are ever so precious lyke diamonds to me. the parents have been advising and supporting and discussing abt whut's best for me to start doing as from now. and abang have been sooo supportive, thank god for that. am ninety-nine percent sure, i'll be secured. yeayness.

heeyyyyyyy my loveliest best friend, Lyn&Alift and my dearest D'verse Solic chaps, zul.eddy.luke.wan, believe me, i wouldn't want to let you guys down too but this is whut i've been thinking of and i made the decision because i know myself. and i know whut's deep inside, whut i need is just for you guys to support me in whutever way possible. okay. dun de-motivate me. dun make me have second thoughts. dun make me be unsure of my decision. i know you guys care as much, but u guys made a big impact in my lyfe for the past 10years of friendship and yeah, i just need all of u to be there. in good tymes or bad tymes. please and please. and i promise, i wont be missing in action if ever i encounter any problems that needs to be shared, okay? and have you realised how often we've been meeting each other rather than the past years? heeeckx. (:

b, somehow i feel guilty for not replying u last night. but truly, i was already asleep. am really sorry. yes of course, i miss you too. soooo damn much till it hurts. but tyme isn't on our side. yearrpsss. been a long while since we last saw each other kan. hmmmmmmmmm. but there are some things in particular that i want you to know abt me and it's best that we meet up soon, hopefully, okay. oh god. help. you are definitely missed and always loved by me. no doubt about that.

during the most troubled tymes,
crazy imaginations just stole me away,
but i'll be happy, as they say,
coz it's tyme to throw all those negative thoughts today.

crap poem. mcm mepek sei. haha.

goodnyte.goodnyte((:

2006-01-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

someone text-ed me this...
campfire burning... campfire burning...
fcuk man... do i have to sing???

siao seii.
ape seii.
tsktsk.

i will seriously miss everybody who've been there for me since the beginning of the year.
particularly, the ones in school for now.
im undecisive, yes.
but when it comes to making it final,
i go with whut i want.
so yeah. it's final.

and that's how it ends.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

9 months already.
us.
wow. so fast tyme flies.
i miss you terribly.
when nak meet, b?

and please, to huever's concerned,
dun tag me and ask why this and that.
why i decide lyke this. blabliblu.
msn ade, tanyer. please kay.
thankyou very nyce.
sayang everybody!
please co-operate with me!
((: ok byeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2006-01-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

saturday.

10 shots=50seconds=MADNESS! pwng+abgajii

initially wanted to eat waffle icecream but we ended up eating long john as we all haven't had our lunch yet. camwhored here and there. crazy madness shots. especially the one with timer. 5 seconds for each. wahh. gerek sia that one. nxt tyme leh uat lagik. yeay!

ina.noi.isha.ryanie. pwng'kuzzins//onelove.

eddy, lyn & wan's b'dae pit at eastcoast. (((:

reached east coast at about 9pm and minutes later, two plates of the birthday cake was smashed to my face. wtf! bukan aku tau birthday gurl. ahahhaa. tapi takpe, it was fun. finally got whut i most awaited for. the most happening part was the heading home tyme. walked all the way to the main bustop at parkway parade and we all took bus no. 55 except for nafisa. hahs. kaknurul and fiqo were soo damn cute seh. they piggybacked each other.. play here, there evrywhere.. they ran and stopped at almost every tiang lampu to take pictures. hahaaa. one of the most happiest couple i've ever seen sehh. i think they deserve the longest awwwwwwww for the day.

hahahaa. that's all i guess. whut a day. and i slept without switching off the damn teevee and computer. heck. ahaha!

sunday.

town was packed just now. walked around with the family. window-shopping. the father parked the car quite far away and we had to walk all the way to tangs and wherever else. uh. exhausting yet tiring. but watching baby'sis walking and shakin' her butt from left to right lyke donald duck's cheered me up. heeee. so very the cute!! saw the father's fren and she thot that me and abang was together as in matair, while playin with the babysister. so me and abang went... "errrrrrrrr...mampos! lol" hahs. weird kay.

and then i saw sumone and she looked at me as if i was some blardie ghost from christmas past.
hahs. and yes i do recognise her. and i reckoned she recognised me too, as she was sumhow lookin at me from the moment i stepped into that department and my eyes were suddenly set to meet hers. hahs! lol. but anyways, how come god made me terserempak people that is connected to whuever for two days already? isshh. ade udang di sebalik batu agaknye. hmmm. no idea man. bottom line: she's sweet. and it's a no wonder............ hrmmm.

i'm missing the dolclubbers. missing them bunches. but much more non-stop missing to my baby. been a couple of weeks without meeting up already huh, B? sigh. i can only wish, and pray but i can't hope that much. seems that tyme isn't on our side now. it's been school for me and work for u and it's hard but still, im able to go through with this with much patience and love. don't u ever worry anything about that. aite, B? for u are always on my mind (:

Love is lyke Sweet Misery.

Where the heart speaks.

And the mind wonders.

2006-01-15T13:35:00.000+08:00

goin out with the family.
will update abt yesterday and today later.
aaaahhh.
tata.

2006-01-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

wahhh liaaaooo ehhhh...
super fcukin bored ryte now can.
supposed to fall asleep at 10pm just now.. but had to find that stupid booklist sampai aku tak jadi tido, end up mengadap computer. uh bagos ah isha.

so many things regarding adobe and picture editting to do sei. my number one boredom killer is equals to adobe photoshop. standard.

ok dah lepas tu, i noe my blogsong nyce. LOL.
for those who've been wondering whut this song is,
it's from Adam from Akademi Fantasia2.
title is Ku Bertanya.
and dun ask me ape tu AF2 sebab aku sendiri tak watch k.
so okay. eh tapi serious, suara dier nyce. sumpah tak bluff.
hahahhaa. ina ina. see lah. u teach me all this smpi da terikot2.

boooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
sok aku malas nak gi beli icecubes uh. korang gi beli uh. mentang2 aku ice princess beh ape2 pasal ice aku kene buat uh nie. wah bagos. boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. mampos nanti aku heret tu icecubes smpi pit kiter yg jauh nak mampos ker tanjong end up smpi saner ice semua cair. hahaa. padan muker korang kang. so okayyy. im free! (: lalalalallaaa.

went to the airport with ina and fahmi just now because we were bored to the fcuking core sia. summore we wanted a peaceful starbucks dlm tempat aircon. ahahaha. so we settled for airport since c fahmi ngek ngok tu keje daerah saner uh. ok whutever. den saw ina the friend werking there. aikkkk. before that we terserempak her at pasir ris. okla apapelaaaah.

im veri bored. i want money, i need money.
hahahhahahax.
a loonnnggg loonggg day tomoro.
penat sia. k saya nak sleep. bye semua!

2006-01-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

was sick and decided to cover myself up with the comforter... until 2.30PM today.
and then woke up, remembered that i have to attend a meeting with the gurlfriend and d'verse solic. so yeah. met up with them at 7 at ang mo kio. talk the talk. chill the chill. and then in the middle of everything, my mood just died. well, some things are better left unsaid u noe guys. tsk tsk tsk. i mean, defending ur gender ain't a problem, but cakap biar beralas ah dat's all. and one of them tick-ed my mood off real bad.

i feel so shitty these days okay. just stressed up and pretty fcuked up with stuff. and hell NO, it's not because of love. it's school. been giving me a headache. and please add that im suffering from a bad flu. so yeah. flu bug everywhere and they have decided to hit me.

and lyn, he's just a jerk. we welcomed him and the guys were even talking to him and being friendly siak. how can he say that it's all our fault? stupid ass. padehal dier yg tak nak get along. ape jer. aku tak paham ah dgn bf kau. sumpah aku tak paham.

but anyways, i thank you for understanding me. because u feel the same way as i do. thanx lyn. muacks muacks muacks.

MOTHER KNOWS BEST.
seriously. as i was tellin ibu that i ain't feeling well and all... she just went...
"takpe, ibu tau..."
(: aaahhhhhhh. i heart my mother.

Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah dirimu dah berubah hati terhadap diriku?

Adakah insan lain bertakhta dihatimu?
Hinggakan dirimu merubah cintamu
Manakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu kepada diriku?

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata, kau cinta..

Sayangku dengarlah rintihan hatiku
Ingin kau kembali seperti dahulu
Kenangan di jiwa membuat ku rindu
Kepada dirimu

A few questions that I need to know.

How you could ever hurt me so?

I need to know what I've done wrong and how long it's been going on.

Was it that I never paid enough attention?

Or did I not give enough affection?

Not only will your answers keep me sane but I'll know never to make the same mistake again.

You can tell me to my face or even on the phone.

You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know.

Did I never treat you right?

Did I always start the fight?

Either way, I'm going out of my mind

All the answers to my questions

I have to find.

tell me.

don't let me be the last to know.

2006-01-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

sampul surat untuk semua...
waaa. a good story indeed. worth watching.

schoolin tomorro.
and naseb baek homework dahbes.
yes arrrrhhhh. abeh tomoro ade art.
4 periods summore.
whoohooo. baek arh.

was at kakyan's house just now.
"thankyou for shopping 4 items with us"
hahahaa. so kiyoootttttt.
thankyou kakyan!!! i love u manymany!!

browsing thru pictures from the cd she just gave me.
hmmmmmm. wowwwwww. so much memories.
lyke kak yan always reminded me...
"it's the cheerful and happy memories that makes you cry...
and the sad ones... from you to reminisce and learn from"
trueness!

i miss Kingdom of Hearts...
the tymes we spent together at that windy place munching on chocolates...
the tymes we shed tears and laughter and smiles...
late night at -I WAS HERE-
the smileykraziecutenessplus pictures...
the lovers and friends...
between me and b and king and qween.
i miss ALL those tymes.
I REALLY DO.
everything about us.
don't forget about us.

and i wonder when can we do all those stuff`s together again?
when can we hang out lyke the old tymes?
hmmmmmmm___. i wonder ...

just a random editted pikcha.
was bored and had nothing to do.
the aftermath? hahs.
mynewfriendsterpicture (:
goodnyte everyone.

i miss you so bad.
:(
b.tagme?

2006-01-10T15:26:00.000+08:00

the heavy downpour have finally stopped.
or maybe at least, it's only drizzling now.
aaaahhssss anyways, selamat hari raye aidil adha to all.
((:
-teringat cerita nabi ismail disembelih sebab nabi ibrahim mimpi
ia adalah perintah dari ALLAH S.W.T-

i fell asleep as soon as i was done chatting with yana at msn yesterday, and woke after that with the loud ringingtone of my phone then i swear i thought it was part of the dream. and so, i shall not reveal whut happened in the dream.. because.. nak tau asal???? AKU DA LUPER!!! ok wakakakakakakakkakakakakaaaa.

i suppose the family will be goin out later, to erm erm erm... kakyan's house at dakota crescent. ladididardidar yeay yeayyyyy. at least tak boring sangat ape. finally i can take the cd frm kakyan that contains alllllllll the picturessssss yg da overdueeeeeee frm last yeaaaaarrrrr's outings... hahaa. hopefully all pictures ader. kalau tak, sedih arh.

and by the way, abt fahmi senget ngek ngok's multiply acct, reading his journal entries never fail to crack me up lyke whut the hell siaaaa. no doubt about it.
asz and ina, biler nak send sayer gmbr? sayer nak edit nie? tak sabar seh. go onlyne seh korg. faster sehhhh.

Excerpt from fahmi`s multiply entry. (lawl)
ps: the ones in pink are mine.

-"He who makes a beast out of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man"-
title: some ppl are juz some ppl.. (sumpah aku tak paham asal pulak title dier camni???)

Gerek ehh mkn ramai2??Tul Tk ina???!!!!!!

It was a wonderful day on sat s it was the 1st tym whr we went 2 cekik 2gthr s a group...there was meanibinaaszishaahmadshikinandfaris...me and an had our paychcks in and we decided to treat everyone @ suntec pza hut..."Buah kukus sedap nurse???" hehehe...the tbl was full of our orders of variety cuisines....'ISHAAA!!!! ASL KAU MKN ONLY THE CRUST OF THE PIZZA?? SIOW AH LERR??hehehe....had our pix taken by a kindhearted retard waiter @ pza hut....( I just control my laughtr whn he said 'TOMAAATO' ahahaz ) Aft we "cleaned up" all the dishes, our stomach was bloated lyk a pufferfish...me and an spent almost 170 bucks on everyting....I was happy to c the SMILES(esp isha's...cool) on everyone's faces.....

cool huh??smiles....

(wahhhh. thanx ar thanx. i must shareshare my smile arh from now on... my smile not so cool ah but ok arh.
"isha punye senyum.. aku jalan kat blakang dier dari jauh da boleh nampak" -an
BEDEK SAAAKKKKK. stepping kepale aku transparent jerrr...
"da ape kene tah c kecik nie senyum from ear to ear??" -an
Ade ade je tau nie an yang baru active on pc. wakakakakkakaa)

"Duit aku duit kau, duit kau duit aku" - me n an....

Aft cekiking @ pza hut, we went 2 'i dunno actuali whr isha brought us', 2 c her frens performing on this hiphop thingy...I felt awkward. Cam tk kene gaya...Met Nezar thr...hi bye. Suddenly, I saw isha's fren whom i'm familiar with....hmm, no wonder he juz looked away... sorry dude...

*ATTENTION* Every1 in dolclub WILL BE assigned a role 2 play.....

#1 Chairperson( it's gonna be me.... - n'sync)

#2 Vice-Chair

#3 Event organisers ( rotating shifts )

#4 Photograper

#5 Treasurer ( considering )

#6 most important one, Medic ( To mend the broken hearts )

anymore suggestions? post me a reply k?

Aft the hiphop thingy, we went jamming....aft we reach thr, I seriously dunno wat telah happen to the 2 cuzzins...Girl stuff mebe? Mebe 1 day u can share it us? anws, I SUCK ON THE GUITARS MAN!!! crappy licks, no coordination on both my left n right....'sigh, mebe i need 2 brush up on my fingers'....Halfway thru, the girls went hm as it was gettin late....P.S hope u had a great tym.. If you do, post me a reply k?...anws we had an awesome jamming session and hopefully, we'll b back.....

oh well, i believe that NurseAsz will be a very responsible nurse who can nurse the ones and help them mend their broken hearts.. betol tak nurse??
and ina can be our mummy with the loudvoice and all...
and then i think ah, i want to be the photographer. ala c how ahh.
okbye akuheartkorangmanymany.

to all, siape2 yang kelua niari, have fun.
siape2 yang tak, ah tak tau pulak.. have fun also.

((: have a nyce hari rayer haji.

2006-01-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

Talk to no one but yourself...

Think cheerful thoughts...

Laugh when nothing's funny...

Dance when there's no music...

Sing like you've never sung before...

Love till it hurts...

Cry when you're sad...

Smile when you're happy...

just me... wishing that things can go as per normal again..
hope that all of you guys are having a great weekend...
besides the heavy downpour... sheeeesshh.

ina, please update ur ellllljayyyy. dun malas malas.
and me, i just finished reading fahmi's multiply acct...
cracked me up lyk hell yeaaah. kan ina? kan asz? (:
funny sia that guy. still remember yesterday.. i was so engrossed with his phone..
isha kechikk: "eh fahmi... kasi aku ah hp kau.. aku nak ahhhh... lehh ahhhh.. oiiiiii..."
and fahmi, with the blurr look: "errrr...huhh???"

ya alllaaah!!! moto razor. im supposed to buy the pink one and then happy2 go and sebok2 with anybody which have the black one. KIiiDddDdddiiIiinnNnggGggg la tootttsssss!!!

extract frm fahmi's multiply...

3 cheers to the dolclubersss......*smiles*
dolclub

fahmi, the senget....
ib, the malay with a chinese facade
an, the most laziest and ruthless donkey...hahaha
faris, the muscular slow thinker....
ina, the loudest among everyone.....
asz, the small but cheerful nurse who can't reali nurse ppl....hee
ahmad, the part tym 4 everyting
nabilah, the mother of all goose...hahaha
raveen, the sweeper who lives @ sengkang dumpster...hahahaha
isha, the smiles of the 11 wonders??? (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
shikin, the silent dove @ jurong birdpark( ade eh? )

"it's weird how we become close at such a short amount of time"
-ina
"fahmi hidop, aku susah. tapi kalau die mati, aku lagi susah."
-an

kekek-ness of certain kekek*s.
lawl lawl. im bored lah.
eh fahmi. sorry aku curik gambar dari multiply kau..
sebab kau curik the editted pixxies dari ina's lj from aku nye blog...
toot. *flyingkicks!* haha.
sorry again ar eh.
it's my turn now. ladidardidar~

and finally, ina succeeded to create her 1st collage. hehehehehehheheheheheh. good job kuzzin!!! (((:

2006-01-08T14:23:00.000+08:00

was woken up today by the loud banging music from abang's room. kalau lagu sedap takpe. nie lagu ape mepek don omar. memekak saaaak. alaaamaaaakkkk. kacau org nak tido seh. tsk.

it's raining. it's pouring. alishaaaa is snoring. hahaha. *sings*
im bored and i don't know whut to do.
im starting to miss everyone important to me that's supposed to be missed.
ibu bought a whole big packet of seaweeds fer us but this one tasted hotter than usual. pedas ok.
ahh. haha. food food glorious food... soto ayam.. here i come.. aku laparrrrrr...

There she goes...
There she goes again...
Pulsing through my veins...
And I just can't contain...
This feeling that remains...

absence makes the heart grows fonder.
I miss you. Why'd you bugged out on me?

Omissions are betrayal.

Get the picture?

2006-01-07T01:49:00.000+08:00

went dol clubbing just now. no, not clubbing mind you.
dol clubbing as in an outing with the dol clubbers.
isha. ina. asz. shikin. ib. an. fahmi. asyraf. fariz.

an and fahmi treated us as they just received their pay or sumthing.
hehaha. yeaaa. $bling bling$~
being the undecisive us, as per normal, we walked rounds at suntec's b1 to decide on where we wanted to eat. hahaa. sanur lah. fish&co lah. surfer sumthing2 lah. swensens lah. ishh.
initially, ina and me wanted swensens uhh.... ice cream sehh.. but den.. tak jadi sehh...
after the kecoh-ness of all kecoh*s, we settled for pizza hut instead. wah liao ehhh.

order this and that and skali the bill was $166 sumthing cents. surprisingly, everything boleh habes uhhh. before anything, ib already said.. "nie confirm tak habes siakk.." and the others went.. "nanti perot boncit" laaa.. whutever shit.. fariz standard ahh.. nature calls all the tyme kan at the toilet.. lawl lawl. so yeah, end up we finished evrything.. very proud of ourselves uh gini. kan kan kann..

abeh tu, when eating, kononnyer nak amek gmbr uh. so macam biaser, ina was the one who asked. hahaha. eh ina, ingt tak, "down syndrome sumbodysumbody"? ok diam isha. abeh da smangat2 ah pose pose kan, sekali gmbr turned out macam whut the *TOOOOttttt* and i looked lyke hantu with no face only nmpk rambut with that selenge fariz ah in front of me.. alamaakkk.. ah bagos ahhhhh. spoil. haiyo.

oh yea, today almost everyone wore black. except for ib. and an. eh? entah ah luper. maybe when i have the pictures frm asz and ina, i'll post 'em up. but sadly, we had no nyce group picture for today. :( next tyme lah.

walked to arts house after that. lenggang lenggok semua jalan. yang the guys nak step tgh skating, sliding2 sebab air hujan all have. hahs. da smpi arts house, mak kao.. ramai. then met TRO jap... watched the SpeakEasy sumthingsumthing... when i only heard the voices tak nmpk org yg tengah semangat perform kat depan. so yah. we all got bored and left after lepak mcm budak tak tau nga uat pe kat luar tu arts house. ishhhh.

bla bla bla... dahbes crite ke lom eh? oh yah. alighted at bedok, they all went jamming after that kat i dunno where.. some building. lost my mood and i teared followed by ina. had to be home early so i went off with ina, asz & shikin. that's all and dahbes.

eddy's turning 17 on the 10th and lyn too, on the 29th.
will be having the kkslackers reunion with the primary sch friends soon.
and so, lyn? KAU NAK APE present? SERIOUSLY.

overall, i had fun today. definitely needed the cheering up and together-ness and the silly jokes and the lame stuffs and talks and whutever in between. till i blog again next tyme.

We will always be together baby that's what you told me.
No secrets, no games. All excitement, nothing plain.
To keep you happy baby, that's my aim.
Strangely it seems that u're closing the door on me.
And now, you're lyke throwing away the key.

where have you gone missing?
______________________

2006-01-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

can't sleep.
america's next top model was enjoyable.
superb scenery. aaahhhhh.

julie julie, biler nak ke luar negeri buat photoshoot sendiri?
hurhurhur.
ok kecoh.

school. hahs.
was a drag. but art. was fun!
ladidardidar.

and yeah. recess was quite okay.
after school was ice-cream day.
so yah. rain rain. go away.

am sleepy. but can't sleep.
ahhh. bye. beeeeppp.

2006-01-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

i finally filled my craving for a caramel ice blended from coffee bean. well initially, i wanted starbucks lah, but junction 8 takde starbucks leeyyyy. so yeah. school was alryte i guess. it was fun with iffah beside me and all the previous 4A1 classmates around me.

hmmm. let's see. sumthing new this year... i guess i'll be taking ART. i have a week to think over it, and try art. art is fyne laaahh. just that i preferred cpa sehhh. who doesn't?!? sadly, O'levels takde cpa so yea... it's tyme for art lessons man. daayyymnnn. but to think again, i have abang to help me, he's amazing uhh in sketchings and stuff as i grew up and watched him draw and draw and worked hard till he graduated from secondary school. lawl lawl. and i also have syaz, ib & fariz to help me. lalalallala.

fetched lyn after school at her home and off we went to bishan to meet up with bada(iza) and the other crazy best friends. went to vincent's crib to play pool. hahahaa. nyce!~ the whole set in the living room. how gerek. boleh maen pool sampai jelak. and there were chocolates at mostly every table in the house sia. hahahaa. with iza dancing around the house, it was mad and happening there. hahs!

i did have fun with lyn, alift, iza, eddy, yazid, vincent & the anak sedare. oh yeaps, and one more person, i fergot his name! hahaha. ladidardidar. and vincent was soooo nyce and sweet, he gave me a doll from monsters' inc. movie. ahahaa. the BOO babeyyy. soooo fcukin cute can. hahahaa. and my babysister just couldn't resist her temptation la.. kept pressing and pressing her tummy for BOO's voices and laughter. lawl lawl.

i want to meet ina soon. eyy babe, ur hair will grow okay. so dun worry. i miss the persatuan seniman sewel peeps siaaaa. and the gurlfriends too. hmmm. a crucial year, 2006, to think i have lyk... 300+ days to just be patient and strive hard fer the O's. good gawd! ahhhh.

ok, on the other hand, i have thursday to look forward to. baby, please?
oh alryte. i miss everyone whom im supposed to miss, so yea.
toodle-looo.

oh and this year, byk jugak lah holiday. tadi dpt diary jer flipped to the calendar page. siak siak.. nak holidays jek. ahhaa. eh mesti ahhh. haiya. confirm june holidays asek skola skola jer mcm nak rak. whut the lahhh. ahahaha.

Secondary Five-A-One. 5A1. nyce class lah. mostly chinese but heck lah, have yet to know them. after all, everyone's familiar with each other only that we have to get to know each other more. haiiizzzzzzzz... school. school. school. biler nak habes?? they repainted the school. colour merepek. aku tak suker. bleah!

2006-01-03T06:42:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING EVERYBODY...

TO THOSE WHO ARE NOT SCHOOLING, BAGOS AR. ENJOY.
wakakakkaaa.

eh malas nyerrr nak gi skolaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
eeessssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ok da bye.

2006-01-02T11:34:00.000+08:00

this is confirmed. i will drag my feet to school 2moro. as in the moment when the car door swwing open, there she goes... dragging her feet towards the school and into the schoolgate and boosh!!!! hahaa. no more alishah.

sial la. crap sia. but im serious, im still on holiday mood. so dun blame me for my craps. ahahaa.
anyway, picture pictures from new year's eve.

ok toodles.

2006-01-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

what's the worst thing*s that could have ever happened to you and your friends when celebrating a new year?

#o1. being scattered away and separated from your clique on the exact same venue.
#02. the blardie painful impact of a spraycan being thrown from a distance quite near to you, in which that spraycan hit ur head so hard lyke Ke-Tennng!! and then you go.."KNNBCCB AH!!!"
#03. after that spraycan hit ur head, it went right to ur fren behind you and it hit ur fren's nose so hard leaving a bloody cut and WHUT ELSE?!? automatically, the side of the nose gets swollen... kaoz. rabak sia.
#04. knowing that your loved ones aren't there with you to join in the fun :(
#o5. fcuked up phone reception in which i ended up with a really bad news of my best friends in that one and only ambulance that i saw... why? because they got bashed up by some..aaaaahhhhhhh. tknk ckp ah. BLARDIE HELL ah sia.. tsktsk.

whut a night, yea? oh yes, whut a night. yesterday was the last of 2oo5 and well, hello 2006!

a new year, a new start and a whole new atmosphere in school. without my beloved and closest friends, it's gonna be helluva hard to go through another year in school but nevertheless, lookin on the brighter side, i have... errmmm... dayahh!!! yessaaaaaaaa. naseb kau naek sec4. best bitch babeeeyyy. harap2 aku nye sec5 recess ngn korg nye recess samer uh.ladidardidar!~ and now, i know who i'll be studying with for o'levels next yr if i got no fren.. hehehe. ehh inaaa. windy tmpt best and senyap and windy laahh..haha. and summore, sewel-ers rocks laaaa.. to the core sia. aahhhhh... i love koranggg sooo mucchhh already man.

last night was totally bitter-sweet. apart from a series of unfortunate events that happened, i did enjoyed every single bit of it with the dol clubbers which are all so protective of me. thankyou im the youngest one! ahahaa. "eh ina, jager adek sedare kau uhhh" i heard. ahahaaa. so sweet can.

met the gurlfriends too, sha, syaz, julie & amy. (: sat with them with fariz and co. all.. chill chill.. snap snap.. smile smile.. laugh laugh.. drink drink f&n orange.. talk talk.. i saw emily but tak sempat say hi. so sad. hmm. and then i separated with the gurlfriends coz i had to follow my kuzzin coz she had to take care of me ryte.. ahahaha. lalalaa. went to marina square to eat as the dols were already starving. thankyou to a particular makcik and the family for the seats eh cik. hahaa.
oh and i saw syed before that.. ok hiii. blablablablabla. supposed to meet the TRO peeps then tak terjadi because reception fucked up all.

the most i dunno how to describe part was when we had to walk back to esplanade frm marina lah... ishhh. so crowded. kalah bazaar geylang. serious. ahhaa. and the policemen on duty pulak target us sebab the guys spray spray kat.. err.. orang2 yg memang patot kene spray foam uh. padan muke. hahaha. gi mampos ar eh eh eh...

the fireworks was spectacularly amazing uh. until asz mentioned it, but i dun blame her uh.. asz..... ahhh.. so touching can.. yea. if only he was with me kan kan kan. and then ina and asz and isha watched the fireworks and hugged each other and lap-kan each other's tears. so sweet. ahahaa. the dols started spraying that confetti thingy again and then we took our very first picture of 2006. yeaaaayyyy to the dol clubbers again. ((:

sumthing bad happened to fahmi. so sad and i, ina & asz almost teared. summore mood teros lyke sumhow hilang uh. isshh. whoever threw that spraycan at us eh, aku sumpah kau hidop tak slamat siak. takpe takpe. nak have fun abeh buang tu bende kat orang, mcm bodoh takde otak agaknyer seh, ade arh, tapi tak tau nak pk. stupid ass. ok enough of that shyt, kiter took our ermmm... 3rd complete group picture of 2006 with the help of some mat standing arnd there in which ina yang tolong ask kan.. hahaa... lawl lawl.. ok not funny.. rambut all sume nga basah2 all perspiring still smile k!

and and and kan, we had fun in the mrt. hahahaa. ina tried so hard to snap a pic of all of us and she did it! but some faces were missing la. ade nmpk gigi jer. cute gilur babi siak. aahaha. a couple standing next to us initiated to take for us lah the group pic.. ahaha. so after that, sarhan went, "thank you ahhh. happy new year.." something something.. hahaa. kekek-ness. asz alighted at eunos alone, while we all alighted at tamp. walked all the way to ina's and sleptover. whoohooo.

indeed, it was fun. and i am now officially a dol club member! yeayyyness of all yayysss! hahaa. the lil'chat and slack session we had before reaching home was fun too larhs. haha.

ok the end. that's how I, Siti Alishah, celebrated the new year, with her BELOVED kuzzin, and persatuan seniman sewel members. thankyou. muah muah. gurlfriends, i love u all sooo much. b i miss you. happy new year to all.

2005-12-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

craig david's smoooottthhh voice never fail to make me enjoy his songs.
whoohhhooo~ i'm lyke havin a playlist of all the nyce songs of his ryte now.
craig david... haiyooo.. meltsmelts~

here's a tribute to the wonderful people who lightens up my days in whutever situation that im in, family and loved ones and friends in my lyfe who needs recognition for the year 2005..

well... let's see...

People who have made a difference in my lyfe, whom always lightens up my days in whutever situation that im in.. and for that, they deserve the recognition.
Loved ones. Closest friends. Friends. ESPECIALLY in 2005.

My precious diamonds of all: Ibu, Baba, Abang, Adek & BabyLiyah..
Home Sweet Home is still and always the BEST!! ((:

Kingdom of Hearts: The King(ABgAjii) The Qween(KakYan) The Princess(Isha)
Them whom I'll always need for endless advices, love, pampering, care & concern.

PWNG KUZZINS LOVE: Ryanie. Ina. Nonoi.
The CLOSEST babes with our monthly meeting & camwhoring, the ones who noes me inside out, my emotions, my prangai and all since young. i love them. they love me. ok thank you very nyce.
and KakMasz too. hehehee. (:

Friendship among Gurlfriends:
Met Syazwani(My darling gf tweenie),
Juliyana(My darling gf who takes the nycest photos),
Shahidah(My darling gf Peenkie Partner) &
EmilYana(My darling boncit gf who gave me the nick of Kechick).

With us being the best of the best gurlfriends i could've ever asked for in which i always thank GOD for sending me gurlfriends lyke them.. We stood up for one another in tymes of good and bad. not to forget, with Nazria too at tymes. tried our very best to give our one and all in this friendship. girls day in and girls day out. our own panorama, our own cam-whoring session, our own photoshoot and yes, our own collection of beautiful yet crazyfied pictures. being able to witness each changes and differences in ourselves, from early 2005 to the end. much love. many many hearts to them even though we are busy with our own stuffs and new friends sumtymes, yea?
MOST Unforgettable Outings: The first meeting, Sentosa, Shaa's birthday bash & MarcEcko competition season at Town.

Aidil(Deedee): B. Lover & Sumone too special.
"8 9 months. Been thru so much, still standing".
One whom I'll always love and miss. My sweetest sin & My soul believer.

And his Friends.. Kama, the most craziest, funny, outgoing and cheeky guy i've ever met.
Same goes to OzeeFai & Shaleny, one whom i always enjoy waving frantically at to say "HI!!!". hehehee. ((:

Friendship among Primary School Friends: United we stand, together we fall. Still among the closest ones..
Azlinda --> my best friend a.k.a my secret box.
Luqman. Eddy. Ridwan. Alift. ZulPrinze --> the best guy friends of all.
10 years of friendship and counting.....
(: Cikgu Rohaizat, most beloved and favourite malay teacher in pri sch till now..

New BEST friends: The YCKSS peeps:
Nafisa, CTFairuz, Bada(Izza), Sai, Rahman(myanaksedare), Yazid.
Saiful, Izzul, Mohd, Asyraf, Jali & Co. the muke posters at esplanade whom skate around lyke mad with their decks..

all thanx to the ones above..for always being there when i need them... to hangout together on a day or two... happy happy tymes. (:

Persatuan Seniman Sewel aka The Dol Club: Ina. Aszidah, Ib, Fariz, An, Fahmi & Ahmad.
My favourite clan. sewel-ers rawks k!

& other new and are now, close friends. Thanks to Friendster & MSN.
Emi. Amy. FarizFcuknuts & Co. MeztaSyed & Co. Kodel.
Dil.. the chat friend.. sewel and gilur and also, good advisor all the tymes to attend to my craps and cheer me up when im down.

Schoolfriends that I'm gonna miss even if they are around:
Auni & Jannah: Whom i share my problems with on the phone, and who are with me through thick and thin in school.
Nely & Dayah: My recent close babes. My best bitches. My sayangs who always seem to encounter the same problems as mine. muwaaaahhhhh! ahahahaaa. lawl lawl.
My personal bodyguards: Danny-Arl(Jeng). Benni Mulia(ChickMagnet). Man(MrParu). Rizal(Rocket). Mimi(Sardin).
Thank you for always being the caring lot. The ones whom i can count on to secure me before, in, and after school tyme.
Cikgu Arizan: The most supportive malay teacher, outgoing and understanding, always attend to our needs, always there to listen to our problems, to give us endless advices and motivation to carry on no matter how tough we have fallen in the past.
Hisham(schmate&oldneighbour), one who respects me and my family. Never fail to flash dat cheeky smile of his.
Arham & Wan, my past and my friends, the friendly guys.. as usual, funny and crazy as always.

Close classmates that I missed out: Adeq. Shidah. QuikstarNoel. Fay. Kristii. Alex. Benjamin. Thomas. Kenneth. Iffah & Fatin.
For non-stop joke sessions in class. Our -insertwhueteverwordhere- hours.
Too much memories from the bitter ones to the sweet ones, them whom i count on to make my day at school at ALL tymes.

Peforming Arts in HS:
Niza, whom im always with during angklung. Missing her as tyme goes by...

LeRaine & Bel, my darliiinggggssssssss. my petite sweet chinese babes who look lyke little twin stars.
thankyou for giving me the nick, Madwoman & always there to tolerate me when i tend to crap non-stop due to boredom during practices at certain tymes. Oh, & not forgetting, Dalphine too.
WenDe, Fyroz, Shen Lee, Stanley, ChenAn & AugustineJude: Teaming up together to kacau me only. toootttttt. hahahaa.
& Mr Khamis: One gerek to the core instructor, understanding and fun, yet hard to please, WHY? because he demands the best for us, for our own good, and yes, thanks to his endless naggings and shout sessions and valuable teachings till we achieved a silver for 2003, and a gold for 2005 syf.

Azizul & Naddy. My abang angkat with an oooohhhhhhhh-sooooo-power-singing-voice..
and the pretty babe(: Both talented dancers. Always visit me during hari raya. Bagos tak luper kawan nye people. I respect!

Siglap Nusantara Orchestra peeps. especially MdNoh, Ekin & Mahathir.
they are the ones whom im most closest with, my past, my present, and my future friends who sticks lyke glue with me whenever they're around.. although we aren't that close now, we still find and contact each other.. exchange thoughts and experiences & the ones who never fail to visit me every year and ajak me go rayer with their matair & clan.

&!!!! My Madrasah Friends. especially Huda, Natasha & Maliha.
They make my day every Sunday. (:

_____________________________________________________________________________________
theend.

In conclusion, I have the most amazing and wonderful people around me,
whut more can i ask for?
(: only, thankyou for being by my side when i need all of you and let's forgive and forget for whutever that we've done wrong in the past. May all of you be blessed with a happier and blissful lyfe in the new year. Insya'allah. Amin.

2005-12-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

ok wait. i need to solat first den i update.

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8pm ah now. still so early. dahla takde crite gerek. mendak nyeeerrr.
i want my one hundred and fifty dollars la siaaaakkkkk.
padehal isha lom amek kat sch office. so jgn talk much. jgn mcm-mcm ah.
ok toootttttttttttttt. but nemmind. maybe tomorrow i go school and take uh.
troublesome uh. but nemmind uh.

at least when dpt the money can go starbucks or whut with syaz.
eh no. i never say i want to belanje her ah.
bluek!

everytyme i go fareast ryte, menggeram jer tgk the waffle ice-cream menu terpampang at the i dunno whut restaurant uhhh. saaaakkk uhhhh. but tak pernah try uh because actually, when we go fareast always go eat at puncak or rose garden or sakura or whutever arr the tempat makan*s at level 5 ker 4 uh. hahaa. speaking of which, remember level 9? that was months ago when syaz, mily and me was eating then baby sms-ed me den i go said level 9 ker 6 or sumthing. ape nie. hahaa.

ok i think i shall stop with this unproper english. hmm. so yesterday was fun, no i mean, seriously fun no matter how boring it can get sumtymes but with the presence of gurlfriends, it was fun. nyeahahhahahahehehheee.

so i've heard, there was an accident yesterday at kallang mrt or sumthing. syaz read the newspaper and told us abt it in the chat conversation just now. hahs. that explains it! the mrt train wasn't working from aljunied to bugis..in the end, me and yana had to wait at eunos until the problem was solved. dang! luckily ina and the dols came uh. we were supposed to join syaz in the mrt but then we all din't saw her when she claimed that she was smiling to us or whut. lawl lawl. kekek kae. syaz. kau ss kape sia? hahaa.

together with ina and company, we ate at puncak. me and the gurlfriends ate nasi katil. ahhh. YUMmy. we occupied the whole two tables lah basically. tried to snap a picture of everyone but hahaha, we onli could see the first four faces and the others were kinda dark. ade yg takde langsong. haaahaa.

tyme to cut everything short. blablablablablablablabla. amy, u're very very cute u know! hahahaa. went to slack at esplanade and met my sweetie ina sayang and asz and the dol club at cthall. wakakaka. we all went home together and we all lived happily ever after. the end.

ok uh. some pictures uh.

PERSATUAN SENIMAN SEWEL. WE ARE THE DOL CLUB MEMBERS.THANK YOU VERY NICE!! (:

b. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.
i want to go to thaaaaatttttt windy place and eat chocolates again with you.
:( i miss those tymes. lastly, i miss you.
hmmmmmm. kisssseeeeesssssss many many hearts to you.

2005-12-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

i don't really feel lyke updating pictures ryte now. but oh well.

i really miss being the old me.
i really do.

2005-12-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

gathering up 2oo5 pictures ryte now. from fotopages and photobucket and back-up cds.
aaahhhh. memories. i miss my sayanggggg.. i want the picture yang we first met uh B. u still have or not, B? haiyaaa... c how troublesome when ur computer kena reformat... HUHhuHiHUH? ishhh.

ok so tomorrow will be an all-pictures entry. wait up. (: gdnyte!

2005-12-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

Inikah Cinta - ME
(syed azmir sang this song... oohhlaaaalaaaa~)

Saat kujumpa dirinya
Di suatu suasana
Terasa getaran dalam dada
Kucoba mendekatinya
Kutatap dirinya
Oh dia sungguh mempesona

Ingin daku menyapanya
Menyapa dirinya
Bercanda tawa dengan dirinya
Namun apa yang kurasa
Aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tahu harus berkata apa

Inikah namanya cinta, inikah cinta
Cinta pada jumpa pertama
Inikah rasanya cinta, inikah cinta
Terasa bahagia saat jumpa, dengan dirinya

Kujumpa dia berikutnya
Suasana berbeda
Getaran itu masih ada
Aku dekati dirinya
Kutatap wajahnya
Oh dia tetap mempesona

Rindu terasa
Dikala diri ini ingin jumpa
Ingin s'lalu bersama
Bersama dalam segala suasana

*syazwani, heheheeee. tak mau jealous. nnti i send u the song. suker kaauu ehhhhh*

ok, so just now was fun to the max kay. went to kallang, got caught up in the rain.. hahaa. then to town, looked for school stuffs and window shopping. coz it's not tyme yet for my retail therapy. hmmm. town yg pack nak mampos. esplanade pon. tsk tsk. hehehe. fyza, idahchix and friends, nyce meeting u gurlz in the train ((: hmmm. iza(bada), alift, my cousin and his friends, and new friends, Izzah and her friends.. (: Fcuknuts and friends. MeztaSyed and friends. ahahhaa. reunion habessssssss.

But most importantly, Syaz and Julie. for being there. MUACKX MUACKX. and Emily, gettin cuter by the day with the boyfriend.... hahaaa.

Okay. and i miss you, deedee.

PWNG. Kingdom of Hearts. ("v") always missed by princess. (:

eddy and zul!!!! come home soon!!!! i want primary sch friends day out.... SOON!!! aku rindu korang. and Lyn!!!! and Luke. and Wan. lalalalalalallaa. ok isha shut up already. k one more.

FOUR-A-ONE. ESPECIALLY. sobx. sobx.

ok dahbes. bye.

2005-12-23T17:13:00.000+08:00

kakyan. i need you. ina. i need you. abg ajii. i need you. kaknoi. i need you.
meeting please. meeting PLEASE. MEETING SOON PLEASE.

how can something that's supposed to make you feel so complete, end up leaving you so empty?

my feelings. it have always been more than yesterday. it increases, day by day.
and i want to know whether it's okay for me to feel this way.

2005-12-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

anonymous: mak aihh...sedey arh...i h8 graduation
ishaa: yah. me too. lol.

deen: halo isha! awak nie mcm model seh. hmmph! jeles. hahaha.. oops. deen is dini* lah. hahaha.
ishaa: oh hello dini. nah lah.. mane de mcm model. haha.

min: hey isha!!juz blog hoPing..decided to tag chu..realy pweEty blog..lurve ur pics..niwaes,congrats on ur results!!link me if u want to link me aite..moi blogGie..modette-minnie.blogspot.com
ishaa: helo. thankiu. will link ya when i haf the tyme (:

fiq: hey...congrats on your results =)
ishaa: thanx man (:

faggotLipstyck: issshhhaa. you express or normal ?
ishaa: of course la NA. den i get my N'level results, i express? hahaa. read la properly.

`IDAHchix.: go to sec5!! im aso decisive as ma pts really made me havin 2nd thoughts.but hye.at least u have a cert. try fer sec5 aite. ;)
ishaa: yea. am goin sec5 after all. issshhh.

i had a really hard tyme deciding on my applications last nyte. goodness. i gotta admit, this is even harder than the last psle results k. at least at that tyme, all was able to choose 6 sec sch of ur choice.. but now, i have only 2 choices and my confidence rate is running low. issshhh.. whut the laah. i called almost everybody close to me saaaakkkk. called the pri sch friends.. lyn first den got shouted on the phone by luke and zul... siak jer.. all the way, zul was blabbering.. "isha please arh. no sec 5 means private ngn aku. either one.. klau tak say bye bye to us" nak joking pon tak agak2. WTF. pk mak bapak aku cap duit kape saa? hahaa. ok bluek-ness of all blueks. i almost gave up and entered my choices for ITE k. troublesome uh nie semua. but whut to do~

was on the phone with auni.. nely.. shidah.. danny-arl.. hamdan.. also, thanx u guys.. u all so kecoh can. my sec friends, haaahh.. gonna miss the kecohness.. and basically, i chose them because they are the ones who can talk some sense to me uh, i think. and emi too. mcm2 answer but then still, everyone reckoned me to carry on to sec 5 since they din't have a chance and they must be really disappointed. haiya. so sedih.

sms-ed and talked to B for awhile after.. as he was working and was down last nyte, i din't want to disturb him that much and make him worry more. hmm. and then i had a loonnnggg conference with ina, syaz and ib till 4am. non-stop eh.

well, im all set to head to school after this. to confirm for nxt yr all. one word: troublesome! arggghhhhh!! oklaaa. b back later... tsk.

anyways, i suspect that some random, potential, or rather sadistic people in my msn just wants to see others go DOWN.. seriously. sadistic people who falls in, and out of love so easily... who pretends to be something they're not. who tries so hard to impress the one they've been putting high hopes for. and then they tend to mess up other people's lives.. attempt almost anything to be hopelessly in love. who claims to be this -oh-im-so-innocent- type. get whut i mean? aaahhhhh. PITY. don't u think?

2005-12-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

THE TAGGY REPLIES. please scroll to the end of this entry.

the msn server is down ryte now. sux. i was in a middle of a conversation with baby. and my friends. stupid siaaalll. haiyaaaaaaaaaa..

today was a frigggggiiinnn boring day. excluding visiting Mashaqirin of course. she's gettin cuter by the day seii. hahaa. so small. hur.

yesterday was unexpected and funny and i don't know..*insertwhuteverexpressionyoucanhere*
Baby was really different in the morning. as in different. but not realllyyy different. aahahaa. lawl. with the take care and msg me earlier so we can meet messages. so i reckoned it's either he already knew my results, or are expecting something positive from me. hmmmmmm.

oh well, i din't expect to receive such results. whut's more, being able to be promoted to sec 5 which, i din't even thought that i could in the first place and also which, is equal to another year at that *toot* *insertwhuteverwordhere* school. hahahaaa. anyways, i did smile. and did cry. and did shout to Baby on the phone. hahaa. he was the first person i called after my results were out. sorry B for the shout. ahhaa. i was somehow elated, u see. n den called my mom. and yada yada yada. ahahaa. B, u really got me extra nervous when u asked for my ic no before i even knew my results. seriously. which is not fair, hahs. but i did fine. (: A HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF(:

Afterwards, i immediately proceeded to where else, Home. hahahaha. alishah bedek. hahaaa. of course not laaahh, i lepak-ed for awhile with the kiddos and bodyguards. aaaahhhh. it felt as if that's gonna be lyke the last tyme but pleaseeeeeee babes and guyz, make sure it won't be our last tyme with each other. please uhhh. haiz. the truth is, my confidence was really running low after my closest friends in school started hugging me and break the news to me that they're proceeding to ite. and i was left hanging there, lyk.. OH NOOOOO... no no no no no. haiz. sedih tau. sedih gilurrrrrrrrr.

spent the day after with baby dearest!! (: met him at his place, then he somehow gave me a talk in the train all the way to harbourfront for dinner. one serious talk. abt my applications to whichever school im heading to next year. and he was reallyy soooo concerned. and cute. haha. asked me to think hard while he was eating and i wasn't allowed to talk for abit, or even watch him eat, i just have to make a decision on promoting to sec 5 and no, seriously, no ite, quoting him. hahaa. so cute laaah. but being the stubborn alishah, as i am, ahahahaa.. u should know whut i did. i have second thoughts. i'm indecisive. i really am. hahaa.

so then we kept blabbering and talking and laughing non-stop while aimlessly walkin in the shopping centre. ahhhh... looveeeeeee. i love him. next up, was the quite loongg mrt trip to kallang. went to fetch iza and alift and my anaksedare after their PA dance practice.. which ended later than usual. toooottt uh. but it was fun, going there with B, watching him play his beloved PSP.. ahahaa. so cute. so fcuking cute. i love the word cute. so dun hate me for loving the word cute. ahahhaaa. aahhh b, i love u.

oh and we managed to walk rounds and got lost, yup, the 5 of us. ahahhaa. so funny. and FUN! but very tiring. at least i had my wish granted, the waterfront was realllyyy a nyce view. but my most favourite, was the bird's eye view when we were in the middle of the expressway foot path. yah. i should have brought my digi along la. at least we won't be so bored and could camwhore here and there. yes, we were on the path beside the busy EXPRESSWAY from kallang which leads us to suntec city. but we walked till bugis siak. from kallang to bugis. imagine. ahahaaaa. kecohh. but seriously fun. if only lyn could be there. hmm.

im overwhelmed. because i get to be in two places at once. two places that is in my top-list of most wanting to visit list. the beautiful bridge at waterfront and that windy place. hahaa. the best was still, being able to walk i don't how many kilometres and could still tahan. i remembered, going to Raffles Hospital's loo before heading home. outside the loo, which was the closed Banquet, goodness, really dark i tell u. eeee. so eerie kan B, the place? lawl. as usual, went home with B... only this tyme, i was the one who slept on our journey home. tired nak mampos ok.

to conclude yesterday, i get to celebrate my day with unexpected results and with my baby. and friends, who rock my world all the tyme (: gosshhhhhh. bliss. love. joy. blessed.

hahahaa. note this.
Deedee: B. Baby. Beloved bf.
Deedee: My Facial Wash in which, after using it and it worked all fine on my skin
deedee + deedee = JOY! (:
seriously laa. my facial wash and my powder's product name is deedee. isn't that cuteness to the plus point or whut? hahaaa. (: just a mere coincidence.

i want to meet my primary school friends. especially the k.k. slackers. im missing them to bits! eh korang all!! hugggsss maaann. ahaha.

nunu: hey, just droppin by to ask u somethin. where did u download ur brushes.. or better still, ur photoshop?
ishaa: heyys. to download photoshop.. http://download.com and brushes are from search engines via yahoo. keyword: adobe brushes.

MeZta SyEd: gd luck 4 tmrw's n lvl results!!!
ishaa: thankiew syed. hahaa.

erin: haha thanks for telling me lol. appt that. nyehee
ishaa: yea. hahahx. no problem.

Nazurah: woah. julie sure got skills in photography. all pictures r nyce.
ishaa: absolutely. she does. (:

best friend: girlfriend .. congrates .. da terbukti aku nie bodoh . see ya soon . missing u now tmr and every other day ..
ishaa: nobody is stupid sayang. it's over. ite is fine tau. hmmm. we need to talk. SOON. be free and hang out.

JULIE: hahhaahhahaha thank you. -.-" ..ite is ok. hahaha. but why not waste a year than losing a chance? yeahhhhh.
ishaa: waahhh. kononnyer photographer yang professional uh nie. ahaha. (: hmmmmmmm. that makes sense. ite IS okay. ahaha.

tITi_vOk: hey. gd luck for ur results yeah.. ;)
ishaa: thank you titi. (:

Syazwani.: sec5! sec5! sec5! pffft-
ishaa: second thoughts. they make me run mad. help me. help me.

Sha: isha, move up to sec5 pretty pls? give it a shot. we got the same points kan, we can make it punyer. together-gether. okay?
ishaa: aku tak tau sha, aku tak tau.

tasha: hey isha, how's ur results? i'm sure u did well right? your junior here wants to see ur smile again lah next yr! hahaha. <3 color="#00cccc">ishaa: i GUESS u will c me nxt yr babe. only this tyme, i won't be smiling that often. ahhaa. lawl.lol.

E L L E T T E *: HELLO!!!! im no more sweetkisses. do relink me ok. & yea all those pixs are awesome.!!!
ishaa: ellete huh? sounds nyce. will relink u. ((: ahhaa. and thanx.

NYTE EVERYONE. THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD LUCK TAGS.

BABY, I MISS YOU.terribly and always.
BEST FRIENDS, I MISS ALL OF YOU.seriously and always.
GURLFRIENDS, I MISS.i really do and always.
PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS, I MISS.i absolutely do and always.
HS MATES, I WILL of course, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS, always!!!!!
:( :( :( :( :( :(

2005-12-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

uhmx. i would be a fake if im going to go on typing as if i am not terrified for tomorrow.
seriously, i do. it's just that i hardly show it. whutever it is, i'll just hope for the best.
two pm. gawd. two pm. and everything will be revealed. it's either the best, or the opposite.
that's all. to the gurlfriends, all the best okaaayy. and to all those who are receiving the GCE N Level results tomorrow... all the best to all yea.

it felt so good when he messaged me an "i miss you".
really. maybe to exaggerate abit, i think i was floating on a cloud for awhile.
the feeling can sumhow be described as such. hahaaa. winks at u, b. (:
it's great to have u back. hearts many many.

((: that's all for today. i'm wiped out! should iron the uniform now...
aaahhhhssssss. da lamerrrrr nyerrrrr tak gosok baju skola....
lol. siak siak. ok bye semua!

2005-12-18T03:25:00.000+08:00

days have been completely draggy for me.

hahhaa. new nephew. isha become makcik already. hahaha.
Mashaqirin was superrrr deeee duppperrrrrr cute CANNNNN!!!
ina!!!! have u seen her???? hahhaaa.
congrats to kak ita and abg azrin. 1st new born baby girl. (:

i miss you terribly, love.
so far and so bad.
so much and damn truckloadz.
3days. two nights. goodnesssssss.
come home soon.

ahh great! it's already sunday. good morning everybody!!!!! ((:
a couple of days ago, sumthing arrived for me by mail. and nobody in this house told me about it,
until just last night. whut the. i was shocked. or rather happy at the same. but more to feeling kinda weird. surprise surprise! (: hahahx. bling bling babeeeeeyyyyy~

ohh and baby, you wanna know whut i did when i was missing u so much these days?
i was eating aliyah's biscuits one by one... and decided to form up our doubleA.
ahahaa. A2.
i sound so miserable. and pathetic. i miss u. seriously. madly. deeply. just you.

& THE LINKS SECTION IS UPDATED. & SO IS THIS BLOG. HAHHAHAHAAA! GOTCHA!

2005-12-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

shots were taken last friday, sixteen december zero five.
isha. julie. and sha. (:

END! (:

2005-12-13T02:17:00.000+08:00

my primary school friends are precious. lyke pearls. cheyyyy. hahaa. because of 10 yrs of friendship and counting.. ((:
but of course, he whom i love and my gurlfriends are precious too. and the other close and best and all those in between. aahhhh. love.

just now was funnnnnn!!! even though it was only the three of us. as in me and lyn and eddy. haha. cute lah he. lyk pimp with two gurls. enough kecoh-ing actually. dun really need too many people. hur. the first place was taka, for eddy's job interview. when can start: immediately!! hahaa. siao. but luckily there was vacancy and the manager called right after maghrib to inform him that he got the job. waaaah. great. abeh dah dpt keje den malas wanna go. ape je. gilur. lol.

as usual, hunger attacked lyn ferst. yea lyke oh me gosh yet so expected already. hahax. went fareast for lunch and the three of us agreed to try the noodles that we never tried before. seriously tkde kejer, i shall say as boredom hits.

next spot was paragon, whereby we visited our 2 other friends werkin. hahhaa. visited ke disturbed? u decide. wan went on his one hour break with us and luke's breaktyme was too long to wait, 6pm. hahs. no neeeeeedddd.

oh and i fergot! i went to the takashimaya library to pay my fines and borrow some books. i'm a bookworm, u see. daripade takde bende nak buat kat uma, lebih baek bacer buku. hehe. thot of heading to the national library at bugis or ang mo kio but the plan was cancelled instead. settled and slacked there for awhile. and they who was with me, onli gave me.. say.. 10mins to find my books? haha. damn it. ape aku kesah. ahaha. ok lyn, u can shoot me by now. bluek!

finally, our last stop was ang mo kio. had to go mc'd to buy burgers for the beloved family. (: and and and.. ermm.... zul joined us then. we slacked, again... normal routine until wan finished his work.. haha. story here story there. to conclude, i really missssssss primary school dayssss.... aahhhhh. too much memories. ((:

and i miss them already.
((: lyn. aku serious. so dun shoot me, kay?
hahahs. bracelet.
((: tata.

eh hello my dear gurlfriends..... biler nak kelua ehhh?????????????

Taggy Replies.

Prinze: wei u.. tgh mkn... jemput eh...
ishaaa: ah jempot. crazy ass. sempat sak tag. hahaa. gilur.

MeZta SyEd: alorrr isha!!!
ishaaa: HELLOOO!!!!! hahaha. crazy.

rara: DONT end the blog. its creative and aiya nicela. whutever it is. DONT end. but still, up to u la.
ishaaa: i'll see bout that. can? (: aahhh. thankiewwwssss fer alwaes cumin by.

FaggotLipstick: ISHAAA!!! UPDATE!!!
FaggotLipstick: HeyHo! UPDATE! im freaking bbored. i need to read sum ENTRIES. ugh. Hahah. sorry.
ishaaa: tell me who r u ferst. (: it's finally updated. faster tell me who r u. or i will update L-E-S-S-E-R! hahs!

tITi_vOk: wow! 6 diff smiles!! byk nye! heh!
ishaaa: yup2. 6 diff smiles. (: (: (: (: (: (: yeay.

best friend: weI .. update la .. tunggu klua dgn aku aru update ehk ? awww . sweet haha
ishaaa: a'ah. agaknyer mcm gitu ah. hahaa. alamak. da update pe. i love my best friend, you! (:

tashaa: err.. eh, isnt shisha some kinda drug that the arabs use to suck. haha. err.. lol! cute lah u! hahaha.
ishaaa: yup, it is. drug, not really uh. ahahaa.

=)): Can i know what photoshop do you use ?
ishaaa: Photoshop CS1 & 2. i have both (:

Syazwani.: uumm, kenapa tidak di-update ya? i bruise easily so be gentle when u handle me. heh. ok isha. hello. da pandai dier pakai short skirt ehhh. aaapp!
ishaaa: hello boobie. before this entry, i was uhm. damn. kinda lazy. ckp org. u also same. hahaa. bluek! (: toot. ok go.

iya: hello alisha!! how are you gal? woah.. your links are getting more and more... FULL sehh.. (=
ishaaa: iya ermm.. bahiyah? im fine. thankieww. haha. the links? ahax. that's y sei. but nvm (: i love to make more blog friends. hurhur.

AMLN;: gee ishaa.rmbr me?amalinaa here.anws,ive changed links la pretty. =) n noo,tht wasnt a boring entry @ all.*tc*
ishaaa: amalina!!! oh yes i do. will relink ya. and u take care too. ((:

mimi: isha i oweayz came to ur blog juz to read ur entry..Ur skins n photo are all ****ing nice!!May i noe where do euu bought the adobe photoshop.Btw can euu link me up...
ishaaa: thanx for visitin and commenting.

sumtymes, miss isha is quite a lazy bum to update her blog and reply the tags. hehee. (:
excuse her please! sorry for the inconvenience caused. take care everybody!

2005-12-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

i don't know whut to blog abt seh, how?
hmmmm.

#no1. i love.
#no2. i hate.
#no3. i miss.
#no4. i need.
#no5. i treasure.

hahs. go figure!!! tak semestinyer orang eh..bende also i very much treasure. hahaha. ((:

so tomorrow is job hunting day with the best friend lyn, and eddy. at town. i think. the truth is, im sick of job hunting already maybe. but im just accompanying those two. yeah.

every single day seems the same to me. wake-up late. bathe. eat. computer. munch. sleep. play with my darling sister. dvds. photoshop-ing. sleep very late. ermmm. yah. basically that's all uh. all around again. so boring kan. or maybe at tymes, i hang out with my bestfriends or meet him. that's love(:
if not, slack. BUT! i still conclude that Home Is The Best Place to be in. hahahaa.
Rumahku; Syurgaku kan kan kan.

i'm wondering whether i should revamp my blog? or should i just end my blogging world since the year is coming to an end soon. urrmm hmmm.

I believe we write our own stories and each tyme we think we know the story, we actually don't.
Perhaps luck exist somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in the peace that comes from knowing that you can't just know it all. You know, lyfe's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

i wish i can jump in the river because some plans that i had for my lyfe went so unbelievably wrong. but i hope i have something to look up for in the future. hhahaa. and hopefully, whut i planned or dreamt or hope for is coming my way. but i have to work for it lah, ofcourse. (:
John Lennon said, "Lyfe happens when you're busy making other plans".
Then he got SHOT to DEATH. oh whut a pity. don't u think?

Some secrets, should just remain as it is.
But sometymes, the truth will fall out just lyke that unexpectedly. Positive or Negative.
mine always turns out the other way, in which, negative. y eh? hahhaaa.
Or maybe, God, wants me to know the truth rather than i just go on not know anything but the truth. quite comparible to: Some things are better left unsaid?

Sixteen years of living and i still have room to grow and learn and cherish and achieve and understand. oh yes(: Thank you God.

can sumone give me the motivation to wake up every morning early, and heh, hope for sumthing a lot more better ahead of me? can? hahahaa. random.

anyways,
i have SIX different SMILES.
if u can tell me whut they are, i bet you know me well as in at tymes u can read my mind, am aware of whut lies in my heart and yea.. u know that kind of stuffs. hehehe.
think k. den tag. haha. GOODNYTE! (:

2005-12-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

Here are the taggy replies...

tashaa: isha isha..err..where do u normally download ur brushes?? btw..keep on rocking girl! haha!
ishaaa: lol. i am *rocking*. too bad i dun exactly have a particular website for the brushes. the thing is, i download 'em and leave. banyak sgt smpi tak ingt, really.

SuzLinA: hey isha! love ur entries, and eautiful layout...anywayz, link me up aites! take care babe!
ishaaa: hellooo. ur prom pics nyce, u know. hehe. ok will link ya soon.

anas: hey ishaaa u got a beautiful layout, jealous sey hmph.. LINK me.? i'll link ya up alryte.?
ishaaa: hahax. okay thankyouuuusssss. eyy dun jealous la. hehe. ok will link u. SOON!
((:

deeyana: ishaaa. mish u alot2. lol. long time ilang from my tagboard ehh .
ishaaa: awwww. mish u too. MIA lah. hehehhe. ok then i'll tag u soon. u also ilang from mine k.

erin: okie ishaa u got nice layout la n ure so the pweetie. hehe got ur add will link u hhee =]
ishaaa: thanx erin. will link u too. :D

A HELLOWELLO TO ALL!
hehs. now this is important. to those who've been searching high and low for me in msn since yesterday, pls be patient bcox i can't really sign in to msn because of the unavailable i dunno whut service freaking shit. hahaha. and it's so irritating. damn it. to my baby, the gurlfriends and the bestfriends especially, reach me by the mobile if urgent.

anyways, i'm really bored right now. and i haven't start watching any dvds yet. hahas. maybe later. been junk-food-eating since noon. seriously tak betol because im too bored. i wanna go out. and suddenly, i feel lyke going swimming. hahahaa. so merepek, ryte, for a sudden thought?

am looking for graphics and brushes ryte now. i have lesser pictures to edit and more brushes nowadays. lyke whut the???!!! so how? entahlah. some thoughts, guns and hearts are love. blood drips are awesome. chocolates are addiction. icecubes are a must-have. cupid wings are lovely. the word:star-crossed lovers are reasonably attractive. and i don't know why im typing all this. but heck. this is random but are actually true-ness.

("v") Deedee, Everyday I'm Without You, I'm A Mess. Fix Me Soon, B, please. ("v")

to anyone whose still reading my entry till here, hahahaa. thankyou(:
perhaps a list of songs for download?
i absolutely heart the lyrics. and some of them songs.
don't be lazy. go download if u wanna know more. hehehe.
they may be not to ur liking, but dun blame me ar. k. hahahs.
featuring lyrics are below the song title and artist.
these are rather relaxed songs, by the way, okay.

01. like eating glass//BLOC PARTY
For richer, for poorer, for better, for worse // We've got crosses on our eyes

02. so much work//PETE YORN
There was a time she could never see him // And her fault was to always need him

03. home to me//JOSH KELLEY
It's like a pain that never goes away // And it always starts today

04. out of my hands//DAVE MATTHEWS BAND
On the window ledge I don't feel safe // And I stay looking down on you

05. i bruise easily//NATASHA BEDINGFIELD
Anyone who can touch you, can hurt you or heal you // Anyone who can reach you, can love you or leave you

06. come here boy//IMOGEN HEAP
I know that my face is only too familiar to your sleep // I can see it in your eyes and I can tell by your body heat

07. echo//INCUBUS
Your movements echo that // I have seen the real thing

08. you//RADIOHEAD
It's like the world is gonna end so soon // And why should I believe myself?

09. fast as you can//FIONA APPLE
My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will // Disprove your faith in man

10. a lack of color//DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE
But I know it's too late // And I should have given you a reason to stay

11. wild horses//SUNDAYS
I know I dreamed you, a sin and a lie // I have my freedom, but I don't have much time

12. goodnight//EVANESCENCE
And when we say goodnight // Dry your eyes // Because we said goodnight // And not goodbye

*BONUS*
bonus track. the one that got away//NATASHA BEDINGFIELD
Don't want to speak in case it comes out wrong // Don't want to blink cause in that second you could be gone

so is this entry boring after all?
you tag! hehehehee.

2005-12-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

Do file this report:
I'm missing you to death.
and it have been A month and 2 weeks since we last met.
Go figure how i counted the days.
Missing hurts lyke a prick from a rose's thorns.
But I do love you still.
heheh.

Darker Than Your Average sounded nyce. ((:
Received it and Heard it a couple of tymes already.
can't wait to see and hear it live.
TRO have my support. oh yes.

Im Just A Girl.
A Girl,
Interrupted.
Girl, Interrupted.

Was I ever crazy?
Maybe.
Or maybe lyfe is.
Crazy isn't being broken.
Or swallowing a secret.
It's you or me,
Amplified.

"You know there's a little bit of loser in all of us. Maybe the truth is, there's a little bit of loser in all of us, you know? Being happy isn't about having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things and making those count for more than the bad stuff. Maybe we can just get through it, and that's all we can ask for. . ."
-Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (a good catch. watch it if u haven't. as in buy it.)

Sometymes, things aren't exactly how you always imagined. They're even better.

A couple of gigs are coming on their way man.
Oh well. I'd lyke to make it up for whut I've done wrong in the past.
I want to. Not that I have to, you know.
At least give me the chance to do so.
pretty please, B?

Anyways, today was rather boring. the whole tyme at home, doing "nothing". Was mostly on my bed. Resting. Not forgetting this, non-stop eating. Junk food, that is. Seaweeds are nyce (lyke eeewww to some others) but u can't take too much of 'em. hahaa. This is crazy. but that's a lesson i've learnt. Now, do take note of whut u watch in the movies and whut can u learn from them. Taking notes won't hurt. As in, the movie quotes are reasonably inspiring and true, for some, that is. It's worth it when u put ur mind and soul to understand it and then gain something from it, really. I've been doing that actually. Movie marathons are fun. hahs. Do it alone in your room. You can laugh. Or cry. Or admire the yummy casts. and errrm. i dunno. Critiscize 'em when u hate the movie as an ultimate ZERO from the rate of One to Ten.

anything else? no. i think i'm done for today's entry. Positive. (: nightey nyte.
MY MSN IS BEING SUCHA PAIN!!!
sumtymes the feeling sucks when u can't online. FCUK IT.

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours." - Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged

2005-12-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

INA, this is for you. read on.

We still-
Always argue all the time
And never make love when its right
We still-
Never say we love each other
Because we are always up in one another
We still-
Fight for every little thing
BUT!
We never ever stop to think that
We still-
Always loved each other

tell him that INA. the last six lines especially.
be strong. i know you can.
just lyke how u always try to make me feel better and alive again.
little shiznats won't go far.
unless he wants too and there's nothing that u can do abt it.
damn it.
such deep meaning to his words.
MY GAWD!
i care as much because i can feel whut u feel, INA.

either you make it right.
or you break two hearts.
OUCH! whut a tale.
well, that's just true-ness.

and yes, it's sincere that i look up to u and him.
i always thought that he was the better one.
even though we have no idea of THE ONE yet,
might take ages to find THE ONE,
but this one ryte now,
is enough, kan?
i wish i can do sumthing to make u feel better.
maybe not today.
im not my usual self today.

haha.
i love u ina.
yeay. u noe u'll always have me.
((: at least.

2005-12-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

There's people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me

the chalet was fun and i had fun. ((:
no pictures to share because i wasn't really in my usual happyhappy mood to camwhore.
so stress. been pms-ing and uhhh.. i think im really in a sticky mess.
wait, hold that thought, maybe im not in a sticky mess after all.

there's always that sight which makes you go wild and cheery.
a splendour that may keep you from feeling down and unhopeful.
but when? oh gawd. please. i need that instantly.
yes, i admit i am a wishful thinker. well at least i have hopes not too high.
just to feel magnificently loved and needed and cherished and treasured soon enough.
basically i feel that im lacking that from the ones around me.
hahs. call that random. told u im a wishful thinker.

anyhow, everything about me is still as normal.
kdg2, slacking at home makes u stressed. but when u hangout, sumtymes even more stress-er. i don't know why. maybe cox of the company? or the not good sight around me? oh damn it. syazzy i miss u blardieee much. and ditto to sha and mily and julie.
planning all wasted. iisssh. nak ckp geram, tak lah... binget agaknye? hmm. and lyn, i miss u muchos lots tooo. dun forget me when u have the other 2 gurls. don't. i need u as much as i need all the important ppl who give me the courage to be strong.

And when the world crumbles down,
I got to my feet and ride
Down and up again, my tresses all over my face,
Longing to see a better path.
From where i stood in the darkness
I saw two trodden paths
But a path i had to overcome as
One body i have.
In the tapestry of life, a path i choose to discover
With a sword,
Angrily i forged about.
Now forgetting everything i had.

But Dear, you were the one i kept.
i love u Baby.
i do.
always will.
lovelove to doubleA.

miss yooouuuuuuuu.

when nak meet???????

have a gdnyte to all.

2005-12-06T12:49:00.000+08:00

PIXXIES- Kingdom Of Hearts; PWNG Kuzzins; Persatuan Seniman Sewel -101205(Sat)
December meeting with PWNG. Ina, Asz & Friends. King, Qween & Friends. ((:

kewlness plus capture. kewlness plus tee.

cuteness number one, two and three. (:

Pakcik bacer NewPaper & Ina. Ib. Sarhan. am i right?

THE SEWELS

("v") PWNG KUZZINS ((:

The Forever Merepek Abg Ajii and Friend (: BLUEK banyak banyak eh King. Hi-5!

SKIRTS RULED THE DAY!!! wheeeeee~

love is all around (:

Persatuan Seniman Sewel and Me. thankyouuuuu. (:

oh i swear the entry below is typed by alift. not all. the replies are typed by him. cox last nyte, the internet was off early, mcm biaser jugaaaakkk.... borriiinngggg.. so i had him to update for me since lyn siang2 da tido. weak seh. muahaha. thankyou LIFT, kau gilur!!! i owe u one. hahaa. dun reveal my password if not i'll shove ur blardieee.. ok stop. haha.

actually, im late now but go n die. hahahahaa.

note: dun mess with me. pms-ing anytyme.

alryte so whut do i have planned for today?
jamming. and chalet at costa sands.
hahs. jamming's gonna be fun if everybody is fun.
chalet's gonna be a whole lot fun-ner if everyone present is gerek to the mighty core.

aaahhhh.
i hate breakouts kay.
shyt arh.
asal ladyred come to attack jer, mesti breakout. mcm Toooottttttt.
bleeaaarrggh.

yeay yeay.
2moro go sentosa with my boobie!
yes syaz im'ma bring my boobs along. hahahaa. siak siak. remember to bring urs!
julieeeeeeeeeeee. ingt tau. aku nak chocolate puff / eclair from delifrance.
try ar babe. for me. ahahaa. ladidardidar~
and ina, r u coming or not????!!? haiyaaaa.

i've got pixxies to post again laarrrr..
the mccafe pics.
qween saye, princess nak pics, pretty please?
ina.. go online can or not u?

sorry if i was cranky to u b.
last nyte especially.
really am.
b, sorry tau k.

*lovelove*kisskiss**

2005-12-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Oh...yeah
My skin is like a map, where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I lay down my guard, drop my defenses, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do your know ur leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learining to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
I bruise easily

oh gawwd. i sooo love the picture. new creation. hehe. guns and hearts. a good combination. ((:

anyways, when u're down, always think positive. sumtymes u can't help it but to think of how ur lyfe can be treated so unfairly by others. but by doing so, u're just adding to ur own problems. i feel so troubled. troubled by my own problems. but i looked over it, and think of the happiest moments with my loved ones... the most important ppl surrounding me.. and how much they mean to me.. how much i need them to get going in this lyfe... i realised that if i give up on lyfe, im just goin to let myself down and let them down too. so my dearest lyn, lift and iza, and to all the happy/unhappy bloggers out there... always look on the bright side of lyfe. and never get sick of ur lyfe. because u have the will to change it. y not start doing it? (:

Replies to taggers

amira: Have relinked you... Take Care (:

DeeDee: A'ah.Movie date lar, B.If this month cannot next month can? Like real you wanna go out with iza, dier msg u tak reply, dier complain dgn i tao...*kiss kiss*

JULIE: Keje keje tapi gurlfren kene ingat mah (:

Ina: A'ah seh. superrrr innocent can. i miss you lar giler (:

eeeduh: Yup i do read your blog... Will link you up too (:
Syazwani: My boobs are always with me wherever i go... LaUgH OuT LouD CaN (:
Best Friend: Semua org nye muke tak clear ape kat gambar tu, GeNdEnG... DeeDee ah? he love iza tak love me seii.. hmphhh... Sentosa on wed and ice skatin on thur, fri or sat... ape ape picit (:
tashaa: I skipped the Prom night and slacked at home instead (:

Ok dahBiZ....

2005-12-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

i typed out a super long entry a couple of minutes ago,
and then it all went *poooffffft* just lyke that. magic or whut?
ohhh. fcuk it lah. oh blogger. u see how sumtymes u trouble me so much?
huh? HUH? HHHUUUUUHHHH?
ok all that aside then.

im'ma try my very best to remember everything..
ermm.. arrrr.. ermmm..
ok stop. i will just go very detailed now.

i miss the gurlfriends.
it's a pity how my everyday entry is abt missing and missing and missing and non-stop missing.
just one thing, dun ever get bored pls?
i can't help it, okay? it's lyke... i need them to know that i miss them muchos lots.
god knows whether the outing me and syaz planned is even gonna occur or not.
ryte my dear, boobie? (:

last nyte was uber bored, can? wanted to chat with thelove but he was out to johor plus he was away and yeah, i settled that he's just not there. and then the primary school friends urged me to a joined convo. so okay. that was fine at first but at a point of tyme, i got bored again so i started editting pics. one of them decided to send me a pic and well... the aftermath, here it is.

THE REPEAT OFFENDERSmy url is there just for copyright matters, aye-okay? ((:but it's rather simple don't u think?well simplicity's the best and they lyked it. purrfect then.

oh and whut else huh?
to conclude and predict, i guess the computer is gettin pretty sick lately.
and the internet connection now is a lil'sucky.
to send and receive pics at msn, maybe it'll take decades. as in... more LATER than usual. gawd.. corresponding to that, i will gather up a couple of cd-r's and start to back-up my precious files before they go missing again lyke they always did. and ARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! i want my old files back damn it.

was collecting and grouping the pixxies of the best friends.
stopped upon this two pictures.
just awwww. the one of me and iza, in which we kinda tried to look lyke siblings.

Baby, tak mau jealous, kay? *kisskiss*

hahax.

guessed it worked. maybe because of the smile? or the eyes? lalalalallaa.
and the other one, is of us four. iza.lynette.alift.shiisha ((:

think there's supposed to be the six of us. my anak sedare & sai is missing. hahs!

ok. be back later. i wanna maaaaakkaaaaannnnnn. yeay!

2005-12-03T15:30:00.000+08:00

sumtymes i wish i can turn back tyme.
sumtymes i wish i can be the previous isha.
yes, i am isha. for now, yes.
but sumtymes, i wish i can be the old one.

ok. laugh out loud.
that is so random.

i'm bored k.
and i wanna go out.
well in fact, i am.
with the pwng kuzzins.
ooohhh wheeeee~

2005 is coming to an end.
i've got new year resolutions in mind.
yet to note it down.
one of these days,
i know i gotta have some thinking & reminiscing session alone.
maybe soon. yah.

and shyt.
it's been three days.
and it feels lyke three weeks.
missin my baby.
and the bestfriends.
and the gurlfriends.

oh no.
sumtymes i wish i can just be drop down dead.
hahs. but no.
that thought was random.

ohhhhhh.
sumtymes i love being me.
but at tymes, i don't.

bye.

2005-12-03T14:29:00.000+08:00

this entry is for 2nd december 2005. and im doing this because the stupid date thingy is so stupid that it ain't appearing when i typed this entry. bodoh! hahhah=p

aaaaaaaaahhhhh. naseb baek ade dvd yang banyak nak mampos.
kalau takder dvd tu semua, i will be bored to death sak.
a couple of days ago, there wasn't any internet connection in the house.
on wednesday nyte, i wasn't holdin on to my celly until today, in which i received it back.
oh god. im thankful for that.

i thought my lyfe was going bonkers k.
iissssh.

i want to go sentosa. and i don't know why. the bestieLyn have been pressurizing me to go. pressurize kaper ishaaaa. stop it siak. ok no. actually, we've been planning, but not doing it.
the same goes to the gurlfriends. asek plan jer, end up tak jadi. c lah. u all semua bz. i really miss u gurls effing much seh. help uhhhh.. iissshh.

anyways, i was browsing thru my fotopages. and looked thru every album. memories started to go round my mind. well, i gotta admit. people come, people go. but do people whom u regard as ur true and closest friends have to go too? damn. it's hard if i gotta think the matter that way. but nevertheless, i know i still have them. hopefully they won't go away. ahhhhh. love. i miss our girls day-in and girls day-out sei. i miss our weekly/monthly camwhoring sessions during the weekends. we used to do that. lyke all the tyme when we're free. so i'm here to officially say, i miss korang sangat2 kay.

maybe i have to refresh your memory.
shaaa is my peenkie partner. and syaz is my tweenie. EHEM!!!! tweenie syaz tweenie.
geram aku. u know, i know syaz. emily is my boncit sister, hahaz, hu calls me Isha!!!MyKECHIK!!!! ((:
n den yana, i always wanted ur dimples. whoohoo. bluek bluek. oh and one more, naz the most kecohrable if we have her around la, that is. (:

if ever u feel as if u want to know whut i usually end up doing before sleeping...
arh. well, i will make sure my eyes get reaaaallllyyyyy tired, then i'll end up beauty sleeping.
ah yer eh. beauty sleep ke ape. produce eyebags ade ar. isssshh. ok. leave that fact.
i design and i edit pixxies until im fcukin satisfied. because im rather demanding and fussy uh. hahaha. naah. when it comes to pictures ajer. or i create colourful blends. or polaroid pictures. or ermm.. yah, desktop wallpapers. it's pretty good actually. i change my desktop wallpaper everyday. hahaa. boring katerkan.
errmm.. ATAUPON... i chitchat on the phone smpi 4 ke 5 pagi with the bestfriends. seperti Lyn, Alift & Iza. etc.

blabiblu. i watched three movies today. Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire. Dark Water & Herbie:Fully Loaded. oklaaa. tiger2 best. though i think, Herbie was kinda draggy at first. hmm. yaa. About HPGOF, waaa.. tak tau asal pulak tak jelak2 eh since the opening date when i watched it with the best friends.. watched this particular movie for abt 10 tymes already i think. Cedric is oh my god-ly gorgeous. and i looooovveeee his hair and accent. whahah. i teared uh.. y must that stupid voldemort murder him with the stupid avadacadabra curse? stupid kan. hahaaa. ape seh. dah sah2 crite dier cam tu. ok shut up alishah. another movie whut eh? oh yaaa. uhm.. Dark Water. I think I lyked the English version better than the Japanese version. Lyke veryy the sedih seyy. kesian budak kecik tu. go watch laaa. da open kat cinemas ke lom uh? entahla. apape.

B, biler nak watch movie? oh and thankyou love, for replying the tags for me. heeee.. very kiut ler u. I MISS YOU!!
& dearest, last wed was pleasant and enjoyable. i love u i love u. *kisskiss*

a sneak peek. here's one desktop i did last nyte. i love it. simple. and i loved the poem so much..
credits to marlia for the poem in one of her friendster pics. hope she won't mind. (:
(INA!!! or ASZ!!! tolong isha bilang kan marlia, kay?)
& this is IMPORTANT: IF ANY OF U THINK OF USING THE POEM, PLS CREDIT.
featuring: SHISHA. LYNDA. IZA. ALIFT. RAHMAN & SAI.

p.s. Aku rindu korg saaaaaaakkkkkkkk! ice-skating!!!!?when?!

2005-11-24T11:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday was awfully dreadful, i mean the going out part and the moment when i found out that...forget it kay. town is such a downer nowadays. maybe every place that i've been to is boring after all. unless u have good company with u. for instance, if i have my bestfriends along... the usual crazified FOUR of us (lyn,izza&lift), or the gurlfriends(syaz,sha,mily,yana) which i seriously need to meet soon, or my sakit perut kuzzin, ina.. along with kakyan and abg ajii and kaknoi... kan baru best kalau cam gitu. hmm. more desirable and better if i have Baby with me too all rite.

arrrhhssss. and at tymes, when i feel that i have nothing else to do in this room, i think rather than listen or talk to a best friend on the phone. yes, to think and revive the thoughts of happy tymes, as well as the days of crap that im down with... just to reminisce and treasure those moments now and then.

i want excitement, enjoyment, pleasure and much freedom from people that surrounds me but sometymes, they just don't understand until they have to take away the stuffs that are precious to me, given to me as gifts by the highly precious people in my list, lyke them. Occasionally, i feel that i can take it but i wish i can just, you know, scream my lungs out or sumthing. After all, this is NOT the first tyme siak. NOT! seriously.

that day... the season of my birthday.. it was lyke.. wonderful. and i actually got almost everything that i wanted but arrrrhhhh. some people just have to take them away... and i wish sumtymes they can tell me their reasons so i don't have to feel guilty or whutever nots.

and at tymes, i feel lyke i'm being treated lyke a small kid just lyke how some of my kuzzins are being treated by their loved ones. pityful.

i really need to indulge in something soon. tyme to hit the streets of town and treat myself with a good deal of waffle icecream or delightful dessert that can make me distress. or i shall buy a big pack of chocolates soon and have a dvd movie marathon in my room and eat those chocs one by one and never get tired of it until i go bloated. then i shall fry some nuggets and crabmeats or cook maggi mee and spend the other hours just eating and drinking and watching and listening. nothing else.

wow. lyfe is so enjoyable. i love lyfe because i never loathe it. hahs. my lyfe. yea.
oh and i gotta go. and baby, i'm missing you. too much. and maybe there's a certain possibility that i can't take it anymore. but i'll be strong. u know i will.

if this entry sumhow hurts anybody out there.. ur feelings? then i shall apologise. till then.

2005-11-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

19th November 2005.
**STARRING**

Picture One: Ok gurls, just a normal smile will do (:
Picture Two: Naurah tak smile wide2 macam kiter seh Lyn.. heee :D
Picture Three: Hmm. KissKiss kaper Lyn?? BLUEK! =P!

Picture One: Cikgu Rohaizat's NTU Degree. perasan kan korgg.. this one i dunno whose supposed to receive the degree and
presenting it. and that's Professor Zul. sudaaaahlaaaa korgg... perasan tak sudah. bluek.
Picture Two: haiz didi. aku tak tau asal muka kau camtu kaaan. Luq step handsome. abg2 lobang aderlah. wakakakaka. ok Zul mantain.
Picture Three: THE FOUR BROTHERS gitu laah. ahh ahh aHhahaha.

Picture One: Eh eh... presenting ehh. Pengantin sedang rehearsal. happy seh dier. lalalala.
Picture Two: Aku terima nikahnye....
Picture Three: Dengan mas kahwin... $$ tunai...
Picture Four: Haiz. I seriously dun get it. ni lah pengantin kesepian. 1st2 happy. pastu tak tau ape ntah. tak betol nye org.
kesian kau didi. oh a'ahla wife dier lari sehhh..hahaha. maen2 ajer lerrr. KIDDING !! lalalala.

We gathered at Cikgu Rohaizat's Open House. The beloved pri sch malay teacher ((:There were 10 of us at 1st, but the TWINS had to go off early due to O'level preparation so there were 8 of us left. Cikgu had 10 tickets to Perjumpaan Hari Raya at Potong Pasir Community Centre so we all forced Cikgu to go because supposedly, he din't want to. takde members, dier kater. a'ah yerrr. issh. It was fun laaa. Hadi Putra handsome gilurrrr siaaaakk. but dier ade goatie. uhuhhuhuhahaha. And guess whut, Didi won Best Dressed Male and Lynda won Best Dressed Female... cause their outfits and acting were good enough than the others. whoohoo. cute la they all on stage. Then ade lucky draw.. the numbers that was called out semua 200+ siaaak. ours was 150 to 160. binget aku. only one of us got the prize.. Zul. It was a Mixer or sumthing. bagosla zul. next yr leh tolong mak buat kuih eh. jangan asek nak perform sini saner je. ahahaa. so that's all. All in all we got 6bucks from Cikgu after dividing 50bucks. hehee. ok aper. ladidar.. den in the bus kekek laaahh..

Luq/Zul/Didi : "eh gurls, 23rd ngan 24th jangan luper eh. make sure semua free. jalan rayer dua hari ngn yang laen.
Luq : "A'ah. Abang dah amek off tau. so make sure u all come. On both days."
Aku : "Siak uh, Lyn. "Abang" kaper... bleeaaaarrrgghhhh-ness."
Zul/Wan/Didi : "Eh christmas eve uh.. confirm aku leh join korang nyer.. half day maaahh.."

pastu semua diam. SILENCE. Then finally...

Hadi: "Eh korang... da tak betol kape siaaaakk?? Christmas kan December. Skrg November bodoh. LOL!!"
Lyn/Aku/Naurah: "hahahahahaaa. ya allahhh..."
The boys: "wakakakkakaka!!!"
LAUGH OUT LOUD. nie la budak2 yang terLUPE biler christmas. whahahahahahaa. kekek sia in the bus.

boohaaa. so me and lyn alighted at serangoon and chilled at this bustop while waiting fer her cab. called dearest and he came
minutes after with the bike.

Aku: "eh mcm kenal jer motor nie.. aaahh lyn. it's him."
Lyn: "eh. a'ah. laughs."
Aku: "oh fcuk. i need to pee."
Lyn: "aku pon saaaak..."
looks at Baby.
Aku: "B, i wearin whut ehh??"
den he smiled the sweetest smile.
meltsmeltsssss.

oh gawwddd. hahaa. that day naek motor takde helmet go ke-tang ke-tang- collided pulak eh.
hehhee. i love u dee. lovelovelove. mwahcks (:

21st November 2005
hmmm. it have always been fun to the max with the three best friends around.

SHISHA + LYNDA + IZZA(bada) + ALIFT = M A D N E S S
whoohoo. we are very sociable people. unless any one mess things up with us. that will be an exception.
thought of sleeping over at the beach but on second thought.. nah uh. because suddenly, i pictured baby in my mind.
serious tau dee. heh. i love u.
so yah. thanx for the day guys. enjoyed it. Lyn, sorrie tk dpt sleepover kat ruma kau.. maybe next tyme jer kay?

2005-11-23T01:15:00.000+08:00

asal arh tk leh amek off? walaupon da amek off sebenarnyer? asal ah kene keje? haiz. takde pekerja laen ke nak suro keje? too bad arh. aku gi sok. aku tak gi thursday. pandai2 korang ar. too bad for u uh luke. besok siape2 yg ade tu asalkan fun sudah ataupon kene gerek banyak ketawe2 banyak merepek banyak bebual. if not, tak fun sehhh... argghhh... asal asal asal kene camnie? kalau tak, haiz. no comment ar. hari tu dah best2. yg kecoh2 semua ade. nie satu takder, raser mcm kehilangan. faham tak? kehilangan. because we're ONE as A WHOLE. jadi besok incomplete. ahh. sedih. asal sak luke. harap2 kau bedek arh. rabak sak. lyn! kau tgk uh cousin kau. rabak sak. haiz. aku eh dari tadi haiz haiz haiz. ok later i blog again. in one minute gitu arh. promise.

LAUGH MY FCUKING ASS OUT.
hahaaa. forget this entry eh. please.
this is random. coz this is all in my mind ryte now.
just frustrated with some people who have to work.
i want ALL my PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS to be there.
sobx. haiya. eh how eh 2moro??
and this will be the LAST of the LAST jalan rayer.

unless it's very and definitely urgent for me to be there..
for example, dengan FAMILY, etc etc...
baru saya gi. set?

eh siak. kater one minute. ok b bck.
no not one minute.
10 mins uh babe. leh?

STOP IT siak ISHA.
bleargh.
k go.

2005-11-19T13:56:00.000+08:00

PEEKCHURES

lil'kuzzin danial & me (:

crazyfied! playtyme (:

rayer rayer rayerrrrrr.

little miss cutieeee wearin kebaya (:

again, me and her.

i was the petite one so i had to be in front! no fair!!!

cute kan this lil'girl?? arrghhhh.

that night and classic.

2005-11-19T12:37:00.000+08:00

days have been goin completely fine for me.
chilling with the best buds when free.
and we watched the much awaited harry potter movie at yishun on thursday.
wheee. it was worth my 8bucks i shall say.

we were kinda worried that if we purchase the tix without booking,
everywhere else would be full as it was the opening date.
so izza booked the tix via the golden village hotline.
(: hehe. kul 8am siak tu giler kol. naseb baek da open. hurhur.

cedric diggory was oh-so-yummy i tell you.
yum. but he... oh no no.
won't tell the details to u uh.
nah-uh. go watch it if u have not done so, alrightey?
a must watch coz it's a good catch.
heeeee.
but the storyline wasn't totally according to the book.
hmmm. well, at least the special effects and digital graphics were terrific.
that was why i loved the movie to bits.

can watch it twice also. thrice also can. later buy dvd can watch again n again.
hehee. been a devoted fan since the 1st book and movie was released.
naaah. not because draco or harry is attractive lah. bluek!
cedric diggory is sooooo damnnn cute caaaannnnn.
yum. hahaha.

damn. truthfully, im supposed to be ready by now.
have an open house to attend with the primary school kids later at 2.
cheyy. kids ke hape! semua da tua bangke!!
eh eh. bedek seh... sixteen onli.. hehee.
cikgu rohaizat's house!!! yeaaaayyy.
he moved again, from aljunied to potong pasir.
so i'll be there later... not really knowing which area exactly though.

there'll be all the other people.
the closesssstt friends and the friends friends.
ex-mayflower primary students REUNITED!!! wheeee~
literally, we're all close lah. ass.
looks lyke the others are taking a break from their O's huh?

haiyo. kalau tak eh, i'll be one of them.
abeh nak buat ape kan, pandaiii sangat.
as in ya, pandaiii. in inverted commas? uh'huh?
aahaa. naaah. kiddin.
eh no, everyone's intelligent kan!!
((:

last nyte, while talkin to izza; the crazy babe on the phone,
i totally freaked out when i saw this insect clinging on my bedroom curtains.
lykkkk... shrrriiieeeekkkeedddddd out.
this is utterly ridiculous, kan?
at first i thought it was just a normal piece of wood siaaak
serious, coz it's looked lyke that when it's still and not moving seh.
and guess whut uh.
after i sprayed shieldtox and then air freshener,
it was flying here and there non-stop sak.
iisssshh.. adeker nnti if i just let it go,
tgh tido nnti tu bende masok dlm maner2 ker...
eeeeeeeeeeee. hahahaa.
dah dah. ape nie bual sal insects?

i'm wearing black kebaya!
heheheee. sepasang with the best friend, miss azlinda!!
yeay to lyn and me!!
as in sepasang colour ajelahh.
and i miss the kembar!! a.k.a twins (:
hahaaa. excited seh.
nak take2 picture seh. fun fun fun.
i hope uh. jgn mcm last yr sudaaaa.
da excited2 abeh.. haizzz. dahla tknk ckp ar.

i wanna go shopping again.
can sumone accompany me?
GIRLS ONLY.
NO GUYS ALLOWED.
unless u're very close to me.
as in i know u very and very well, and u know me well...
or for years.

on second thought,

oh let's just Forget it!!
maybe i shall ask mommy along?
or abang?
or baby...dee, u want to?
or izza and lyn and lift and whuever whuever..
the usual ppl?
gurlfriends? sha/syaz/mily/yana??
or inaaaaaa???
the king and qween!!
pwng???? hahaa.
mcm ramai pulak eh.

bladibladibla.
im bored laaaaa.
im crapping, kan?
hrrrrms.
so should i close krazie_ice.blogspot.com?
should i? should i? SHOULD I?

been thinking abt it, but not doing it.
ass. iisssssh.

sumthin kinda bad happened at midnight.
i dunno whut i did?
u left me confused?
seriously, u did.
and im sorry if i've hurt u or anything.
get back to me?
and im missin you as each and every moment passes by.
and NO, i wasn't enjoying last nyte my dear.
i wasn't... whut made u think so anyway??
anyway, u were'nt mad at me when i thought u were.
isssshh.

oh, btw, now im hooked to blythe dolls.
thanx to ina and asz laa nieee. aiyerr...
note to self: my latest hobby is collectin pictures of the cute looking dolls.
and also, strawberry shortcake!!! goodnessssssss.
these collectibles and stuffs are drivin me crazy.
know why? it's the cuteness laaaaa.
gawwddddd.
hehe. ok bye.

2005-11-17T12:17:00.000+08:00

now u're lyke infesting my tagboard with ur hate tags.

and claiming that all i typed in my last entries was just plainly stupid.
hahs! MY BLOG. MY SAY. LOATHE IT? LEAVE IT?
that's just so simple isn't it? whut's the purpose of the [X] button?
to close this window. ladidardidardidarrrr~

zailah? is it you?
if u want me to apologise abt being sarcastic and too straightforward the first tyme we met,
den SORRY. perkare kecik buat ape nak besar2kan eh? ish.
there you have it.
if u want me to respect you as sumone who is ABOVE 16, if u care so much abt it, then i will.
ONLY if u respect me. WHY SHOULD I IF YOU DON'T?
it's always respect youselves, and respect others.
correct? think abt it.

the case is closed aper. with mira and ct all. now whut more do u want?
expose urself. well at least i'll know who u are and we can talk things out just lyke how we did with the others on tuesday.

da cakap ape i dun have any problem with you. i hold no grudges to anyone involved. if i do have a problem with u, cakap ar. tak payah nak flood my tagboard with ur hate tags and "somebody" nicks.

haaaaiizzz. da malas la.
orang nak meredhakan keadaan bukan nak gado2. uat pe sak.
orang nak buat kawan abeh korg buat muka. abeh nak suro aku buat aper?
this is the last tyme u're goin to see me dedicate an entry to u guyz.
UNLESS, some things needs to be said AGAIN n AGAIN.

don't forget that i have the right to type whutever that i want in MY entries.
u hate it? u dun read it. or better still, LEAVE IT.

now whut do u have to say?
AGAIN?
hahha.

2005-11-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

finally one last uncle's house. and we're through. I THINK AR.
best tau ade sedare ramai..
imagine...
12 aunts and uncles from mommy's side
and 18 from daddy's side?
BUT, you may get too tired sumtymes.
lyk me! hahs! ok bye. nak kelua nie.
one last house. Yippppeeeee!~

and i miss you.
deeeeeedeeeeeeeeeee.
(: hearts("v")

2005-11-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

somebody, you mentioned just whut the fark ryte?

hahs. who are u anyway? expose urself... leave ur real name or sumthing... so i can know the real you.

NO wait, i think i know who are you.

nevertheless,

mira if it's you, we've talked yesterday... u heard me, and i heard u... everyone who were there listened to u too... and if u hate me so much, u dun need to waste ur tyme doing this. and u dun need to feel jealous. i have NOTHING extra special to do with ur admirer. please learn to trust if u want u and him to work. we're best friends for god's sake. dun tell me u dun have close guy friends in ur lyfe. i've known him since lyke whut... primary one? nearing to BLARDIE TEN YEARS now. GAWWWDD!! try to break me, azlinda and alif apart? no way. that ain't gonna happen. i dun hold any grudges to you. i understand ur position. so that's fine with me. yesterday, u said we're settled, ryte? GOOD.

and ct, we used to be best friends, remember the good old tymes when we were.. primary school kids? yeaaahh. the piggy back days we used to do? hahs. yea. i still regard u as a friend i've known for ten years already. not one, not two, but TEN. get it? i'll pray for u and ur boyfriend for a long lasting relationship. always and forever, kay? ((: settled then.

hmmmmm........ to the other people involved last monday? you don't know me and i don't know you except that u know my name and how i look lyke. if you think i've offended you, then that's so fine with me. u want me to apologise? so be it. SORRY. ladidardidar. as i said, i hold no grudges to anyone of you. an ABSOLUTE NO.

goodbye now. hahas. i'm done with all of you.

2005-11-15T14:32:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO A GROUP OF PEOPLE.
that i just met. that just met me. yes. JUST! THE WORD JUST!
30+ people as a whole? ryte?
(HOWEVER, !!NOT!! including those who actually have the initiative to say whut they keep in
their hearts out, being FRIENDLY and HONEST, that is ((:
U KNOW YOURSELVES.
and i don't think i need to mention names or rather, school.

kerana mulut, badan binasa.

korang sayang tak dengan kakak korang?

how much eh does friendship mean to all of you?

anyway, siape2 yang ade matair tu,
sila jaga matair korang supaya diorg tak terlepas ke lari ker.. hmm?

bukan nak cakap aper la,
basically, whut u need to have is trust sei.
y must u be damn afraid that you'll lose him or her when MAYBE u urself know that u can't
take care of the one u love and that they deserve sumone better than u?
take note: I SAID MAYBE
look at your reflection in the mirror.
and then, ask yourself:
AM I DOING ALL I CAN TO PROTECT THIS RELATIONSHIP IN THE FIRST PLACE?
whose fault is it? listen to whut is TRUE not whut u HEARD.
DAMN IT.
come on dear friend, why don't u tell me whut's wrong with you?

why should one who is ATTACHED
lyke her friend's (whom she have known practically..her whole primary sch lyfe)
boyfriend?
UNLESS she's a bitch lah that is, who wouldn't care less for her friends' relationship.
please siaaaaaakkk. think and i really mean this,
THINK before u act or say.

bad mouthing people is all that one can do i guess.
anything la.
and then u have a grudge on the one u hate.
siape nye dosa eh skrg?
too bad. it's yours.
whut do u want the person u hate to do?
huh?

which friend will u trust?

someone u've known since primary one...
or
someone u plainly will get mistaken of because
of how they pathetically BRAINWASHed you?

so which one?

sorry doesn't always cut it uh.
too bad________

if you don't lyke someone,
despise, or hate, or loathe, or detest..
WHICHEVER U CALL IT...
it's either u tell them straight,
or just keep quiet
tapie sebenarnye the truth is better kan?
BUT u dun be jealous if that someone
is close... very or shall i say TOO
close with sumone u adore or love...
OR is very important in ur lyfe la.
senang kater seh.

it's their choice. isn't it?

bleargh.
if u believe in KARMA,
u'll get whut i mean.
uh huh,
whut goes around, comes around.
just you wait. and you'll see.

after all, im just a newbie pe.
or should i say, newcomer?
kan, korang, kan?
seriously uh,
siape makan chilli, dier yang akan teraser pedasnyer.
THAT PERIBAHASA FITS YOU GUYZ PERFECTLY WELL.

and anyway,
i have my own rights.
different people have different opinions.
and i believe, my CLOSEST friends that were present that PARTICULAR moment/day,
who knew whut was going on in the first place,
did their part, which is to defend.
so whut can u guyz do?

and now u feel lyke killing me.
do you?

While hari raya is still here,
do enjoy it while it lasts.
and learn whut it means to forgive and forget.
because well, no one is clear of mistakes.
and i mean no one.
nobody's perfect.

and you know why this entry is specially dedicated to all of you?
the reason is... well...
sumtymes, u need to think before u say sumthing.
or better still, DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.

at first look,
one may seem extremely arrogant,
or will sound sarcastic.
and that one person, only knew u guyz fer whut...
10 minutes? or maybe 2 days?
whut do u expect them to do..?
or maybe DEFINITELY the opposite of whut i just mentioned..
but u need to
get to know them.
u'll be amazed when their true colours stand out.
then, u can judge them.

i dotnola.
that's whut i think.
yes. whut i think.

New people are only new for a day. After that, they're just... people.
Who will excite you, disappoint you, scare you a little bit.
And it's tempting to run away when that happens. It's good for avoiding things.
The problem is you're just avoiding yourself. Avoiding people you love.
You'll end up avoiding lyfe. Get to know people and let people to get to know us.
Let people in.

yes my dear friends,
LET PEOPLE IN.

((: i hold no grudges to no one.
hari raya kene happy2!!
tak hari raye pon kene ingt jugak
lah kan ape yang sepatutnyer diingat.

clear the conflict fast.
friendship is important.
dun screw ur friendship because of
one lil'silly misunderstanding.
u'll regret it one day.
trust me.

anyways, i'm quite content that i knew u guyz.
i learned sumthing new.
naaaah. dammmnnn. i've learnt alot actually.
so okay. take care.
i appreciate whut u guyz badmouthed about me and my friends.
THANKS EH.

may happiness always be with ALL OF YOU and THE ONES YOU LOVE.

2005-11-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

WHUT THE A**. hahahaa. suddenly i'm a robot now? naaww. hahaa.

2005-11-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

promised that i will post pictures ryte?

hmmm. the recent ones. and some favourite old ones.
here it goes...

went to pasir ris park on the 9th of november;wednesday with the best friends who've been there for me alot lately. we just couldn't resist the temptation of hangin out again and again for pure fun and non-stop laughing session blabbering about god knows whut.. hahs. knew lyn and alif since they existed the same batch as me in pri sch. and bada... well, that "guy"... knew him the day before since he's lyn and alif's close sec sch mate. so ya. we all clicked that fast. ((: they're the bestfriends. feels so good to catch up with the good old tymes yea. maybe u guys should meet ur pri sch friends too. trust me, u should. hahahss. bluek!

with shades babeyyy... yeah. i'll be okay. (:

it was a last minute plan actually. 8th November;Tuesday. head to bugis to shop shop shop. Gosipping with ur guy friend and girl friend is fun sometymes. especially when one of them is a "guy". hahs. bada bada... kau gilur. and so i heard, i've got a new nickname. -shisha-. hahaa. onli that gilerr-tak-pernah-penat-asek-bebual-je-non-stop-bada- calls me -shisha-. gasak kau lah nak.. da besar. haha. stylists for the day was the three of us since alif shopped at TOPMAN..ONLY! iissh. nevertheless, it was pure fun again for a first tyme since the last tyme we met.. so okay. boo!

7th November; Monday. 15 kids and then plus 2, visited my house on a monday, in which, i had no mood to go out actually. and the 15 kids asked me out with absured reasons. As i skipped 2004's rayer outing with those kids, i had to tag along kalau tak niza dan matairnyer, ekin, nak step taknk fren saya (KIDDIN babe!!) lepas tu yang laen sume kecoh2, so to avoid any misunderstandings and untuk meredhakan keadaan, kite pon berayer! haha. so the story goes, they're my cca friends... knew them since secondary two when hougeans combined with siglap nusantara orchestra. angklung + gamelan + crazyFriendly people + one super Nyce instructor, MrKhamis = MADNESS! (: yeayy to hougeans and siglapians. ok bye. i miss attending angklung pracs and performing... sobx sobx.

my birthday... 2nd November 2005. Pada malam Aidilfitri, Siti Alishah menyambut hari lahir nyer bersama kakak sedara yang tersayang dan matair-nyer a.k.a. The King, The Qween & The Princess together-gether. cheyy macam berita harian sak. okok. (: fun tau to become us. hahaa. my sweet sixteen was celebrated kat kolong block.. ade cake.. dapat present yang sayer amat suker sekali... lepas tu ape ehh.. snap2 gmbr... minum air syrup sebotol 1.5litre.. uhm uhm... makan cake using the tissue which i brought the whole tissue box down from home.. AND we used my 2 year old sister's forks and spoons. bagos kan aku.. hahahaa. A fab birthday to remember.. muahckx to the people who wished me with crazy midnite phonecalls and msn convos and also, the long-winded sms'es. <3

31st october; Buker with the primary school friends... Luq, Lin & Lif... yes, our friendship stays. tak pernah dan tak akan putus, insya'allah. We're always in contact with each other so that explains why we're still so close till now. Actually, there's supposed to be more than 20 ppl whom we're all close with... but those bunch all couldn't be there or preparing for O'levels. all the best to them.. few papers to go kan.. c u all soon. sayang semua! (:

31st August - Ina's Birthday Celebration cum 2 days, 1 night Family Chalet (: people whom i love were all there, and they will always be the ones that i can't stop missing. hrrrm. one particular celebration not to be fergotten, kan Ina? the day 2 people met my WHOLE family from me mummy's side.. (: hahs.. so fun and *important*. very, in fact. Kiter ade wannabe driver dan penumpang2 nyer... birthday girl dan kakak nyer... king and qween.. Kingdom Of Hearts <3 onelurve.

this one's in the chalet...

13th August- PWNG session. Kuzzins' monthly meeting. hari yang cukup touching uh. kan kan, korang, kan? heee. (:

One Beautiful Memory at one of my favourite places with a nyce cooling breeze and a pleasant scenery. 6th August 2005. No, it's not a Beach. No, it's not Esplanade. hehe. u guess? (: oohh wheee. Sayang Semuanya. These are the people whom im missin very badly. whelp whelp! we need to meet soon! okae? *LoveLove*

i'm wiped out! too much typing? naaah. i wanna have lunch now. toodle-loo. will blog again later if tak malas, alryte? girlfriends, biler mau kelua? jalan rayer ke... shopping ker? King & Qween!! da lamer tak jmper... monthly meeting tak set eh? uhmm. inaaaaaa.... kau ehh.. haiyer.. say want kol me nak go out. oops. da seminggu start skola la dier.. cian cian. ahaha. k dah bye. hehehe. sorie if my entry todae kinda merepek. nolar. touching sebenarnye... gambar2 nie semua.. lies a wonderful memory u know. heehee. tata! ((:

2005-11-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

hatisaket.hatisaket.hatisaket.

entahlakenapekan.boobiiboobye.

anyways. bloggers' rayer outing kan, siape2 pegi?? hahs. see you gurls soon yahh. yeayyeayyyaaa. insya'allah, i mean.

mangkin nak pulak close blog. tapi nnti lah. end of the year ke.. siape nak join?
jangan tanye kenape. ehh. tanyer lah. tapi tak tau akan diberi answer semua samer ke...
laen2. hehehe. bluek! taklaaa. maen2 je. c la how eh. nak close tapi mcm sayang. kan kan kan?

bye.
ni serious nie.
bye.
later i blog again.
with peekchures.
PROMISE!

2005-11-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION!!!!!!!! SPOT THE DIFFERENCE! tak ker best tgk entry sendiri di-copied wholesome gitu. cumer org2 nie... they tukar2 buat double2 alphabet la... o jadi 0 la.. pape arh. tknk letak url uh... nnti sendiri malu. siape makan chilli dier teraser pedasnye. ok bye.

MINE.
i dun need a bestfriend lyke her in sch. i don't. i have benni. i have danny. and i have the other classmates and schmates who are more of the "friends" type rather than her. haha. thankyou for everything. thankyou for backstabbing. thankyou for being two-faced. thankyou for showing me that i actually gain nothing being friends with you. thanx alot. the friendship, the good times we had, u can have it back.

HERS.
ii dunchh need a friend lyke him in sch0ol. i d0n't. ii haff dear. i have my l0rved ones. andd ii haff the 0ther classmattes and sk0olmattes wh0 are m0re of the "friends" type rather than him. haha. thank y0u for everything. thank y0u f0r backstabbing. thank y0u for being two-faced. thank y0uu f0rr sh0wing me that ii actually gain n0thinkk being friends with ey0uu. thanx al0rtt. the friendship, the go0d times we had, eu can have itt all backk .

MINE.
SEVEN Things That Scares Me
1) God
2) Kiamat
3) Flying Roaches
4) Drowning
5) Accidents
6) The temper of Loved Ones

SEVEN Things I Like Most
1) Anything got to do with the word SHOPPING
2) Waffle IceCream
3) Camwhore & Snapping them
4) Caramel
5) Editting pictures
6) Make blog layouts
7) Meet/Chill/Spending tyme with loved ones

SEVEN Most Important Things In My Room
1) My Bed (and everything on it)
2) The whole set of computer
3) Fan
4) My Dressing Table
5) TV & DVD player & Radio
6) Telephone
7) Almari (and everything in it)

SEVEN Random Facts About Me
1) I HATE MATHS
2) Adobe Photoshop Addict
3) I love being Loved & Pampered
4) I am too nice as in VERY forgiving
5) When I'm on Mood Swings, i tend to spend HOURS in my room. crying. writing.
6) Pemurah..dengan senyuman. SMILES (:
7) Believe it or not, I am a Bookworm. hehe.

SEVEN Things I Can Do
1) Talk to myself
2) Edit pictures non-stop
3) Talk on the phone & sleep at the same tyme (!??!) hehe.
4) Gossiping And Giggling With Girlfriends The Whole Night
5) Make sure that my gloomy friends are CHEERed up
6) Not sleeping the whole night when sleepingover with my kuzzins
7) DREAM. dream PLEASANT dreams. hahahaa. (:

SEVEN Things I Can't Do
1) Roll My Tongue
2) Eat dodol/dendeng
3) Cook proper dishes
4) Decide on sumthing i want (Indecisive at tymes)
5) Walk outside Naked. (siao arh!?)
6) Be Vegetarian
7) LOVE maths. (eeeee. hahaa)

SEVEN Things I Plan To Do Before I Die
1) Marry the guy fated to be MINE (:
2) Have 2 kids. A boy & a girl.
3) Sky-Diving
4) Meet All my Loved Ones
5) Achieve all my Dreams
6) Go UMRAH & HAJI (insya'allah, nak tgk KAABAH)
7) TAUBAT!!

HERS.
SEVEN Things That Scares Me
1) g0dd
2) kiamatt
3) c0ckr0aches! bluekk .
4) gh0st st0ries
5) accidents
6) The temper of Loved Ones

SEVEN Things I Like Most
1) sh0pynkk
2) ch0colatte waffle .
3) camwh0ringg 24/7
4) mamam c0kelatt
5) edittinkk pix
6) make bl0gg lay0utts
7) spending tym witt my l0rved 0nes

SEVEN Most Important Things In My Room
1) my bedd witt my pill0ws andd bantal busukk
2) y cupb0ardd and everytinkk in itt .
3) fann
4) my dressing table
5) radi0
6) handf0nn
7) alamari ( andd everytinkk in itt )

SEVEN Random Facts About Me
1) I HATE MATHS !!
2) ad0be ph0tosh0pp addictt
3) ii lurrbb beinkk l0rvedd by daa ppl ii l0rvedd .
4) l0rve twuhh f0rgiff and f0rgertt & d0 thinggs f0llowingg my heartt .
5) spentt myy tym in my r0om cryingg, scribblingg andd writingg .
6) spendd my dayy drawing a smile 0nn my face =))
7) pynkk, peenkk, PINK phreakk! andd black twuhh .

SEVEN Things I Can Do
1) t0k twuhh myselff .
2) edit picturrex n0n - st0pp
3) t0kk on daa f0n andd slip until my m0m hadd twuhh hang up daa f0nn .
4) g0ssipeenkk and giggling witt frens while t0kkin on daa f0nn .
5) make sure dtt my frens are cheeredd up until deyy get irritatedd by mie .
6) n0rtt slipynkk daa wh0le nyte wen slip0vering witt my c0usinn .
7) c0nference until 1o+ ppl .

SEVEN Things I Can't Do
1) r0ll my t0ngue
2) eatt babi .
3) c0ok meals
4) decide thinggs by myselff
5) st0pp takingg picturexx .
6) be cleverr .
7) n0rtt hatingg daa ppl ii hatte .

SEVEN Things I Plan To Do Before I Die
1) marryy daa GUY fatedd twuh be MINE .
2) haff twuhh kids : a b0ii and a grrl .
3) f0rgiff ferr all daa sins ive d0nne .
4) meet all my l0rvedd 0nes
5) achive all my dreams
6) Go UMRAH & HAJI ( insya'allah !)
7) TAUBAT 0ii !!

you know who you are, you thirteen year old.
bleargh.

2005-11-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

i SHOULD blog ryte now. i should. hahs.
i'm actually thinkin of closing this blog.
by the end of the year, maybe?
any objections???
hmmmm________.

anyways, the 1st day of rayer was lyke every other year... but we visited mostly from my
dad's side of the family... first to dakota then to ang mo kio as most of them lives at
that area... next was serangoon then balestier and geylang baru then finally...
Bedok Reservoir... HOME SWEET HOME ((:

Second day of Rayer = a BLAST!!!
even though everybody tired gilur, we had to wake up early but nevertheless, we were still
late... met the others frm my mom's side of the family at tampines then to Pasir Ris then to
Bedok area then Ubi then Woodlands & finally Choa Chu kang... about... dunnolah... 20 houses
lyke that? i think uhh.. haiya. so tired. kiter sewa bus. best giker.. kecoh nak mampos.

the nyce nyce pictures are in one. so yea.. here you go..

1st day rayer...

Second day rayer..

Okay sayer nak kelua.. nnti sayer blog lagik yer..

2005-11-03T11:32:00.000+08:00

Sempena Syawal yang sudah tiba, ku ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon maaf zahir & batin sekiranya ada terlanjur perbuatan mahupun tutur kata sepanjang persahabatan kita dan keberadaanku...
Semoga lebaran kali ini akan membawa ketenangan & kebahagiaan buat kita semua...
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin

((: inginku pinta kemaafan jikalau ku pernah terkasar bahasa, menyakitkan hati ataupun apa sahaja kesalahan yang sewaktu dengannyer... daripada setiap ahli keluarga, sahabat handai dan insan-insan yang disayangi, yang akan tetap dekat di hatiku. Harap dimaafkan yer... Semoga bersua pada lebaran ini... Jalan Rayer babe... yeay yeayy. ((:

to dearest gurlfriends, i love you and i miss all of you. especially Liyana & Juliyana. Shahidah & Syazwani too. see you gurls soon. **hug hug kiss kiss**

to all my close primary school mates, see you guys on the 3rd week of rayer, i suppose, on the 23rd and 24... or 24 and 25th November. Good Luck fer the ones takin O'levels soon. All the best yea. One Lurve!! yeayy yeayy tis yr jln rayer dua hari. gerek. hahaaa. kecoh eh.

to the besties from HS, sayer amat merindui semua... sayer sangat rindu maser-maser di skola. hahaa. Enjoy the Hari Rayer kay. Kalau nak jalan rayer, calling calling jer eh.. beh tak tau. hehe. bluek (:

to the cca peeps both from HS and Siglap Nusantara Orchestra, u guyz are welcomed just lyke every year to go visiting.. salah silap harap dimaafkan.

and to my family... whom i will be meeting in a couple of hours tyme, the kuzzins.. pakciks and makciks... yeay yeay da rayer. sayang semuanya. can't wait for tomorrow also. . ramai2 my mommy's side semua naek bus kiter nye family naek kereta.. ): so sad. heh.

ahhhhh.. lagi siape? uhhmm. everyone lah. selamat hari rayer. wheeee!!!~

oh and yea, not forgetting.. the birthday wishes via sms and testimonials and msn conversations and crazay midnight phonecalls... THANKYOU sangat sangat!!! touching u know. ladidardidar. 16 things for my 16th Birthday. (: lagi.... enam, i think. yang laen semua da strikeout! I THINK ar. hahaa. most of my wishes came true lor.. Alhamdulillah. Amin.

-selamat hari rayer sayang- awww~ hehs. (: lovelove! isha sayang kamu!

2005-11-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, YOURS TRULY.
miss siti alishah. ((: ladidardidar.

Ina just sent me a testi at friendster.
and she said... BESOK RAYER!!!!
lyke duuhhh.. buttt wHOOOAAaaaaaa...
im not ready yetttttt. no no nooooo.
hahhaa. shitass. i haven't shop for nyce nyce headscarf.
as in tudung as in headscarfffff. dahhh diam uh isha.
i wanna look different during hari rayer ((:
padehal da memang selalu pakai eh. gilur.
it's for my own good lor. kekekekekx.

im happy being sixteen.
lyke finally after months and months of waiting.

eh sabaaaarrrr!!!!!

LEONARDO WILHELM DICAPRIO...
I LOVE YOU!!!!!
MY GAWD. LONG HAIR, SHORT HAIR.. apape hair,
U'RE STILL GORGEOUS WITHOUT A DOUBT.
TO ME UH.
SIAPE YANG TAK AGREE... BLUEEEEEEEKKKK.
KEKEKEKEKX. I LOVE LEONARDO.
ALL TYME CELEB-CRUSH SINCE I WAS...
I DOTNO. SINCE I FIRST WATCHED ROMEO & JULIET.
EHH IM EXAGERATTING!!!!!!! HAHHAA. CAPSLOCK KAPER ISHAAAA.
HAHAHAA. ok dahlahh. cukup.

okay later i blog again kay. promise.
lovelove.

2005-10-31T16:47:00.000+08:00

so im here to blog.
later ade insan insan yang ckp i veri malas nak blog laaa..
errr... busy laaa..
aper laaa..

bluek. nola. just kidding (:
anyways, i want to distress. so im goin to spend the night with the mayflower primary school kids. eh no. hehs. the ex-kids. chehh kids seh. sudah laaa. da tua bangke.. kids. bluek. actually im already late uh but heck i got a straight bus frm here to bugis and then sampai saner, the guys will be treating us since they just received their pay. i can't wait to meet lyn! hahs. step da bertahun eh tak jmpe.. padehal adelah dlm satu dua bulan gitu.

and i miss the kingdom of hearts. my king and qween that is. no no, not forgetting ina and kaknoi also la. nak ikot gi geylang ke tak eh later later? hmmm...

i am not counting the days to hari rayer, not the hours too but the minutes. because... hmm. lotsa stuff needs to be done before the day comes. yah and my birthday.. it's lyke.. i dunno. i lost the feeling of it. and i dont think i can get the feeling back unless a miracle happens or sumthing.

it isn't over. it isn't.

ok bye sayer nak kelua.
pictures pictures pictures from 27October05.

2005-10-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

sesungguhnya aku sudah berkali-kali mendengar lagu Di Pinggiran Aidilfitri dari 2D.
ade dua version uh. yang lagi satu... from Dikir Temasek.
alermak babe.. that version also touching sehh. haiyo.
i nak cry but i tak leh cry. hahahaa.
cheyyyyyyyy`~ sebab puaser-ing mah.
and and and.....

Perpisahan Terasing from KRU made me wanna cry more.
damn itttttt.
cannot tahan redi.
arrgghhhhhh.
it's the word perpisahan uh.
gawwwwdddddddd...
i feel lyke i've been squashed.
SPLAT!* eh gitu ker sound effect dier? ahhh paper arrr..

i dotno why i'm suddenly soo veri in the mood to listen to non-stop lagu rayer.
keep downloading and downloading to realplayer and windows media player and finally my mp3...

yeay yeay lagi lima hari nak rayer.
yeay yeay lagi empat hari alishah turns sixteen.
yeay yeay! hahahaaa. kecoh sak.
welcome to boredom nation everyone.
im bored seh. and the.. errr... oh-veri-the-cooling weather makes me...
more relaxed and want to tone down on slow songs. heheh.

this is not kental moment*s,
mind you.
this is i dotno lah whut feeling.
uhhhh. feeling rayer.
oh the vibe.
hahahaa.

ok adios. dah bye.

2005-10-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

Bergema suara di tabir fajar
Mendayu irama takbir berlagu
Penuh syahdu
Oh sayang Syawal menjelma
Tiada seindah yang sudah
Hanya keluhan pilu
Bermain di kalbu

Di pinggiran Aidilfitri
Terdengar suara takbir bergema lagi
Namun ku di ambang sepi
Dan mendung menyelubungi

Di Lebaran bergelita
Tiada sinar cahaya hari mulia
Di hati sunyi dan sepi
Yang pergi takkan kembali

2005-10-28T13:48:00.000+08:00

when a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
when a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
when a girl looks @ you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
when a girl answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
when a girl stares @ you, she's wondering why you're lying.
when a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing you to be her's forever.
when a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking attention.
when a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
when a girl smses you everyday, she wants you to reply @ least once.
when a girl says I LOVE YOU, she means it.
when a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that she wants you to be a part of her future.

what a girl wants...

2005-10-27T14:34:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts:

o1) i miss my old hardisk. the one which contains the whole chunk of pictures from early this year. memories tu. ish. documents. many2 psp brushes downloaded. 2000+ songs from ares + limewire. damnIt. ARGGHHHHHHHHH. frustrating gilur seh.

o2) siti aliyah, my darling 2 yrs and 1month sister is uber cute and her voice is loud yet somehow irritating. soon-to-be INA agaknyer. hahahaa. bluek bluek banyak banyak.

o3) i miss my abang. asal dier kene skola and not sit home and watch dvd with me ke criter p.ramlee ke. haiz. i miss him sia.

o4) my birthday is on malam rayer. ooh wheee. actually, im already sixteen according to bulan Islam. so yeah.. hahaa.

o5) i want sixteen things for my birthday. betol!

o6) i miss azlinda. luqman. rozaidideedee. zubaidah. shahidah&shahirahKEMBAR. ahhh. senang kater, all my primary school friends that im most CLOSEST with.

o7) i want to meet fitri! fitri fitri fitri.... i miss that pri3 classmate of mine laaaaaaaaaaaaa. dang!

o8) I MISS SCHOOL!!!!!! cries*!! semalam i saw leman,hamdan,aslam,bopeng all at town sehhh. i miss them the bodyguards. gawwdddd. it's officially I MISS SCHOOL day TODAY.

o9) I'm super excited for the little birthday celebration with the KING & QWEEN kat kolong blk rumah aku sebab mlm rayer punyer pasal tapi so whut, tetap best kan. (((: we the family. KINGDOM OF HEARTS. naaaahhhh. hughug kisskiss banyak2 ((:

1o) love hurts. love is unpredictable.

11) Dwi Andika is super dee duper adorably cute can. gawwwwdddddd. meltmelt. ina u know who he is kan. Ditto in Hikmah Indonesian Channel RCTI.

12) Reading is on the TOP-list hobbies of mine right now. thankyou i'm a bookworm (:

13) My baju rayer is GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

14) Yesterday was gerek to the max and my cheeks somehow hurts because of extreme laughter tak habes2 daripade buker puaser sehingga ker lepak kat mccafe. haiyooo.. abg ajii ah ni ngn ina kekek-ing non-stop.

15) i always thought i was number one to you. but looking back, i never even was your number two.

2005-10-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

SEVEN Things That Scares Me
1) God
2) Kiamat
3) Flying Roaches
4) Drowning
5) Accidents
6) The temper of Loved Ones

SEVEN Things I Like Most
1) Anything got to do with the word SHOPPING
2) Waffle IceCream
3) Camwhore & Snapping them
4) Caramel
5) Editting pictures
6) Make blog layouts
7) Meet/Chill/Spending tyme with loved ones

SEVEN Most Important Things In My Room
1) My Bed (and everything on it)
2) The whole set of computer
3) Fan
4) My Dressing Table
5) TV & DVD player & Radio
6) Telephone
7) Almari (and everything in it)

SEVEN Random Facts About Me
1) I HATE MATHS
2) Adobe Photoshop Addict
3) I love being Loved & Pampered
4) I am too nice as in VERY forgiving
5) When I'm on Mood Swings, i tend to spend HOURS in my room. crying. writing.
6) Pemurah..dengan senyuman. SMILES (:
7) Believe it or not, I am a Bookworm. hehe.

SEVEN Things I Can Do
1) Talk to myself
2) Edit pictures non-stop
3) Talk on the phone & sleep at the same tyme (!??!) hehe.
4) Gossiping And Giggling With Girlfriends The Whole Night
5) Make sure that my gloomy friends are CHEERed up
6) Not sleeping the whole night when sleepingover with my kuzzins
7) DREAM. dream PLEASANT dreams. hahahaa. (:

SEVEN Things I Can't Do
1) Roll My Tongue
2) Eat dodol/dendeng
3) Cook proper dishes
4) Decide on sumthing i want (Indecisive at tymes)
5) Walk outside Naked. (siao arh!?)
6) Be Vegetarian
7) LOVE maths. (eeeee. hahaa)

SEVEN Things I Plan To Do Before I Die
1) Marry the guy fated to be MINE (:
2) Have 2 kids. A boy & a girl.
3) Sky-Diving
4) Meet All my Loved Ones
5) Achieve all my Dreams
6) Go UMRAH & HAJI (insya'allah, nak tgk KAABAH)
7) TAUBAT!!

SEVEN Words I Used Most
1) HAH!!!!
2) Whut the Fcuk
3) Mepek siak
4) Kiwak
5) Ah yerla tu...
6) Serious?
7) Pape arh.

SEVEN Celebrity Crushes
1) DWI ANDIKA
2) Leonardo DiCaprio
3) Billie Joe Armstrong
4) Gerard Way
5) Chad Michael Murray
6) Ryan Phillipe
7) Hayden Christensen

SEVEN people I would love to do this:
1) RYANIE (MY QWEEN)
2) ABG AJII (MY KING)
3) NUR SALINA (MY DARLING COUSIN)
4) NURUL SYAZWANI (TWEENIE!)
5) NUR SHAHIDAH (PEENKIE PARTNER)
6) NUR LIYANA (EMIL(Y)ANA WHO CALLS ME KECHICK)
7) NUR JULIYANA (JULIE JULIE TAK SEMPAT JADI BRIDE)

2005-10-25T18:40:00.000+08:00

the computer is making me sick.
and i just vomitted blood.
seriously, i just did.
pure red blood it is.
eh takkanla darah colour kuning eh.
tsk.
eww. whut's happening to me?

2005-10-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

i hate the word-reformat.
i hate the word-reboot.
i hate the word-hard disk.
no, i hate the word-spoiled hard disk.

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
nak maki tak leh maki.
nnti ah. lepas buker. dah bye.

2005-10-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

sixteen things.
sixteen.
for my sixteenth birthday.
ini bukan tamak.
ini adalah kerana...
a series of unfortunate events happened uh. hahs.
if i get those sixteen things/happenings/and only i know what they are,
i'll be the most happiest one yet,
on her sixteenth birthday.

one of the sixteen things,
__________________________.
bluek. undisclosed.
ladidardidar.
one two three four five six seven eight nine ten.
eleven twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen.

i just hope that HARI RAYA would be a BLAST.

don't let me be the last to know.
don't. it hurts.

need me to explain things?
anymore things?
i can. just say it and i'll do it.

when there's no communication,
it's a no win situation.

however,
sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret.

if you could show me that someone that i used to be,
bring back the tymes that we enjoyed to me.

& to bloggers and friends, adapted from -staythesame-
don't you ever wish you were sumone else when you were meant to be the way you are exactly.
don't you ever say you don't lyke the way you are, when you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
i think that we could be whutever that we wanted to be if we could realise all the dreams we have inside.
don't be afraid if we've got something to say, just open up our hearts and let it show us the way.

Believe in yourself, reach down inside,
the love you found will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come out alive,
have faith that what you do, you'll make it through.

And so,
She said, "Hello Darlin, Hello Sweetheart".
She said "I'm lost tonight, BUT I know my way around".
She said, "Hello Darlin, Hello Sweetheart".
She said, "Please show me which way to go"
_______________________________
Left undone, she can't give up.
_______________________________
She said, "I can't give up until we are ONE".
She said, "Oh, don't break this heart of mine".

the end. and so i said. and so i heard. well so i read.
but the one left undone was me. but the one who couldn't give up was me.
yup, that was all me.
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But believe me though, may happy tymes emerge once again.

Baby, love is tough but we can take it.
Baby, times are rough but we can make it.
Baby, We can work it out.

i'm off now. nitey nite.

2005-10-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

Saying "I love you" is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me, yeah

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if I took those words in two?

More than words to show you feel that your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away?

Then you couldn't make things new just by saying "I love you"

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hands

And touch me, hold me close, don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me, yeah

'Cause I'd already know

More than words, baby. That's all it takes...

Here i am, ryte now at dakota crescent. sleepin over at my qween's place. a series of events happened today. gladly to say, everything went fine as planned. went shopping with my family and i bought another watch to add up to my collection of butterfly watches. muahah. love love ibu (:
Then daddy surprised me at burlington square's lift lobby. hehs. he bought me an mp3. sumthin lyke abg ejal's lah just that mine was 512MB. maybe they were waiting for the ryte tyme to buy me one for my own coz now that my birthday's near. aaahhh. sixteen isha, sixteen.
love love baba (:
Settled home after stopping at Sheng Siong located at Bedok Reservoir to buy some food and the gas drinks for hari raya.. gawwwdddd.. i so can't wait. whee whee. hahah.

After maghrib, rushed out to meet MY BELOVED KING & QWEEN (exaggerating here, cause i know they'll be smiling wide when reading this) lovelove! met them at cthall mrt, finally a day out naek public transport uh u two! haha. accompany me home la gitu best kan. ladidardidar. i keep u my dirty little secret. OOPS. hahaa. i'm tuning in to my mp3 lah... the speaker here dotno uh.. gilur kot. hahaa. tootttsss. the waffle icecream was without a doubt, YUM YUM! a deliciously delightful one. the chocolate hershey's syrup was oh-my-god-ly... aaaaaaahhh.. hahax. thanx eh. thanx thanx thanx kakyan and abg ajii. (alamak. i dotno how to spell la. ajii, leh tak huh?)
One particular news that made me elated was of course, ___________________________. the fact that my king & qween and their one and only princess here, won't need to worry abt anymore abt losing the one we love with all our heart (: aaaahhh. lovelove (: and the special date also, i will remember! tak sabar nie. hahaha. yeayyy. kecoh sak isha. ok dah stop.
Walking around at bazaar geylang just now was uber tiring. uber perspiring. gawwd!

Oh, bummer. I'm currently in boredom land. deep shit. hahs. Nahhh. not really. kakyan & abg ajii are painting the house ryte now and i'm happily blogging. bukannyer nak tolong ke ape tau, nie isha. haiyoo.. drpd tolong nnti jadi tonggang terbalek with patches here and there on the walls, lebih baek duduk diam diam endure. betol tak? kwang kwang.

i've got pictures to post & publish. it's just that, i don't have the tyme to do so. or rather, i actually have the tyme however i'm just... one word: malas. hahs. I MISS SCHOOL. and this is officially proclaimed. i miss my friends. my close friends. i miss talking to cikgu arizan. i miss the so loud naggings of mr roger lee, our caring form teacher. haaiizz. í miss school damn bad. i miss hougang. ahhaa. and i miss everyone that i know there. serious seh. one more thing, i miss angklung! i miss the niggas. my madness godbrother, mr pinky. hahaha. and i saw niza just now with ekin at bazaar geylang. cute la korg... carik baju sepasang eh???? awwwwwww. cute gilur seh. how i wish...... i can.... wear....... sepasang..... ahahhaaa. dah la tuuu...

SIXTEEN THINGS I WANT FOR MY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY.
axhabatydbfhgfnbcghvhvdhsygfjbschsgfnzbchsabfbnxcyuhsbvcbxvcgsfdbsvacghsfbcvgsfvb.
how, can? come on everyone. silakan, figure it out.

Tears stream down your face . . .
When you lose something you cannot replace . . .

Here's All To You, the one i gave my heart to,
If ever I was crying and I never could explain the reason why...
When I look deep into your eyes and you gave me that -i-want-to-know stare,
always ask yourself is there something that you could do or is there something that you should say to make me happy once again? There were tymes I knew but I found it hard to say you are special in my lyfe and the precious yet priceless memories we built together, are all kept safely in my heart and i can NEVER afford to make any of them disappear from my mind.
Remember when you said Memories Can't Be Erased? (:

I can't take it no more
Since you went away nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

Cos here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world that I can do
And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cos I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life?
BBMAK-BACK HERE...

and i thank you for the song from amber pacific. though i always listened to it, now that you wanted me to hear it once more, i did it. over and over again and i listened hard. i try to get what you're trying to say. i've made my decision. seriously, i've made mine and now it's tyme for you to do your part. your decision lies in your hands. hope i made your darkened day brighter somehow.

one more song for you. Miss You More-BBMAK

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you

Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am away

And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be

There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily

So much between us and we both know that it's wrong

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else

There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away

Are you finding it hard it all on your own

Having to face each night alone

Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need

And I miss you more each day

So many feelings, emotions running away with me

Cos it's you that I believe in and I love this one so deep

So much between us and we both know that it's wrong

Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

Back where I belong

well, that's all i've got to say. i can puasa again next week so yeayyyy. hehes. what's important is the 10 Days till the end of Ramadhan. uh'huh. Lailatul Qadar and i wonder, when? hmm. take care to all. happy fasting. happy preparing for hari rayer. ((: smiles!

2005-10-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

boohoo im back. hahs! but in a couple of mins, im goin out again.

21 October 2005
just wanna wish My Qween A HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
(even though i'm meetin u later, i have to publish this pic i did. funny kan, kakyan? but then... takpe.. hahaa. haiyaaaa. yeay yeay u guyz gonna treat me waffle icecream later.. ONE LOVE!)

one more kiss could be the best thing.
i gave my heart to you the moment i fell in love with you.
this is real and believe me, i never want this to end.
never assume that this is the end. NEVER.
because i dun recall i said so.
please.
hold me close and say three words lyke u used to do.

be back again to blog THE LENGTHY ENTRY at midnight.
tata.

2005-10-22T13:40:00.000+08:00

expect a lengthy entry from me, please.
coz i will have that for you, you & you & everyone else here.
will be back after asar. i'm goin shoppin with the family at OG.
hahx.

2005-10-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

went to bazaar geylang on 18 October 05. last tuesday la tu ((: heheh.

basically whut im doing is cutting and pasting this whole entry from ina's LJ. because i very the malas want to remember seh. haaax. pemalas eh. (the ones in pink are editted by me kay)

oohlalalalarr.went geylang with my dearestests NUR SALINA & NURUL SYAZWANI.
nah amek kau full name skali aku letak. haxx. me&ina were talking abt how i used to call her "kak ina" and she called me "ct". haha. how different things were back then. so anws ina met miss syaz first and kekek-ed non-stop on the bus on the way there. yep. talking about who else, but mr "i-look-anti-social-in-class-photos". hahax. geylang wasn't as packed as saturday (as they said) and at least we had room to breathe.walked around and bought food. settled ourselves at kampong melayu to eat. yaah. semalam we go kampong and syaz mcm raja sehari seh pose gmbr! abeh delete.. ape je! hahaha. sardine jer we sit at this bench in the middle of the place. eh why is it sardine and not tuna ke.. hax. yea! finally ina got her ayam percik (CIK CIK PERCIK! haha. gilur) though it didnt taste so good. and we didnt eat dendeng because we got freaked by the leering mats/pakciks/irritants who were selling the dendeng. yucks. mentang2lah we were 3 girls with no protection. EH GEREK TAU TO BECOME US (hahahahahahah!!) because we got FREE EXTRA FOOD at every place we bought. haha. i&syaz got free otah, i got free goreng pisang+the cute mat selling the ayam was flirting with her. (eyyy. that guy flirted with me sak! eee. i never eh!) hurhur. had tons of FUN though it was only a while. saaaaaaayaaaaaaang korg. more days out pls. :) :) muahahahaa. yerps, fun. mwakx!

2005-10-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

John Mayer - Back To You

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

Yeah...
I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

Yeah...
Should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Oh..oh..oohh...
Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be

2005-10-16T06:33:00.000+08:00

it's 6.42 am ryte now.
when i'm supposed to be asleep.
i can't seem to do so. eh. i have to attend madrasah later.
AT LEAST BETTER (:
random thoughts are conquering my mind.
nah. i dun think they're random.
but of purpose, i think of those thoughts.
fcuk.
you know what, i feel so.... oh never mind.

i guess i can never be good enough for you.
am i?

The sun likes to rise
And the moon likes to fall
And thats kinda like MY LIFE

so yeah.
Fields of emotions;
i'm trapped in darkness & confusion.
why me? save me!
To win this twisted war inside me
won't justify the pain i held within me
WHERE DO I BELONG? YOU TELL ME.
no wait, i think i know the answer.
I'm NOWHERE near you.
ANYMORE.

period.

Even though you've been doing me wrong I still care.
Do you think that by treating me cruel that somehow I'll disappear?
I will. I'm just waiting for you to ask me to.
Or maybe I need not wait.
I already get the idea.
________________.

Hahs!
See. I was all alone thinking those thoughts la.
Wasn't random kan. Of purpose ok.

Ok goodbye.

2005-10-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

have u ever felt so wonderfully special at one tyme?

was lifted up so high till u become so not yourself. (:

and the next thing u knew,
u were being dropped down so low
until u don't know where u stand anymore.
in other words, where do u belong?

somewhere very close.
or just too far away?

hahs!

ok bye.
i wanna go solat terawih.
at least better.

2005-10-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

Each and every person have their own definition of Truth. & I came up with mine.
Truth ?

I tend to question things a lot, probably think about things too much, but a question which always seems to daunt me is 'What, exactly, is truth?' Without taking the official definition from the dictionary...how can you accurately define truth?

It could be said that FACT is the only absolute form of truth. Fact is an obvious, well-known truth because it has been proven to be true. Opinion, on the other hand, is quite different. Opinion is based on something that is thought to be true by an individual. Opinion cannot be a fact because an opinion is only seen to be fact by certain individuals who perceive it as a truth.

Faith is a category of truth because faith is decidedly true for a certain individual. If you have faith in something, you believe it to be true, therefore it is true for you in your mind. But then Faith cannot be proven because it is a person having a strong feeling toward the truth of one thing. No physical evidence is there to support the belief of claim its truth.

BUT!

What if two blind men are walking towards a large hole... One decidedly stops and says "I believe there is a hole around here somewhere, so I choose not to walk this way any longer", and stops. His friend amazed and indignant replies, "Bahhh! There is no such hole. I will continue to walk. You are an idiot to stay. The sun is hot. And I believe some shade is coming up.", and then keeps walking. Thirty seconds later the walking man is heard plummeting down the chasm, "ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh".

Now, each had "faith". One was right, the other, wrong. So how is faith a special kind of truth, rather than real commonly understood truth? In other words, how is faith to be considered "true" merely because I believe it to be true? Is there not an intrinsic element of belief that requires it to be true or false? The law of non-contradiction?

Or perhaps whats to be learned here is, that there is infact no universal way of defining 'Truth', and truth differs from person to person?

I think that Truth is our own natures and the natures surrounding, that we cannot fully control but fully control us, that we cannot fully define but fully define us. The more we understand, the more we gain control and the more we can define.

semuanya ok

2005-10-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

ahahahhahahaa. suddenly i feel so kental ryte now. but heyyyy. i've loved listening to KRU since whut.. kindergarten? seriously. ahahax (: anyways, this song is nyce uh. fun to listen to. ade pelajaran di sebaliknyer. so yah. here you go-

Kru - Semuanya Ok

Bersendiri lagi
Mengenang yang terjadi
Menyentuh hati

Semuanya Kan OK
Dalam kehidupan suka duka
Adakala kita diduga
Cekalkan hati
Pasti kau kecapi mimpi

Pasti, kau curigai ku dengannya
Sangka kau sudah kehilangan cinta
Jangan ragu, dia milikmu
Janganlah cemburu tak menentu

Aku, sekadar tempatnya mengadu
Saatnya tangis pilu
Oh! Mengapa...luka hatinya
Sedangkan...dia yang kau cinta

Alam percintaan penuh pancaroba
Perlu tempuhi dengan sabar
Awan kelabu akan berlalu
Pelangi menanti, dia setia menunggu

Chorus
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Dia merindu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Percayalah kerna cinta dunia berputar

Wanita, nalurinya selembut sutera
Hargailah pengorbanannnya
Perlu selalu, ikhlas di hati
Nyatakan...cinta mu yang satu

Luangkan masa mu, dia kini merindu
Kehadiran mu di sisinya
Kau saja, bisa jadi penawar
Membawa kembali senyumannya, ku pasti

Chorus
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Dia merindu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Percayalah kerna cinta dunia berputar

Kadangkala apa disangka
Bukan seperti yang berlaku sebenarnya
Semuanya 'kan kembali bersinar
Teruskan harapan dan keyakinan

Yeah, segalanya salah tanggapan
Bumi manakala tak ditimpa hujan
Yang pasti...
Ambil apa yang terjadi sebagai pembina diri
Janganlah pula putus harapan
Undur bila hadapi tekanan
Tempuh sehari, demi sehari
Dan keyakinan diri, esok ceria kembali

Chorus
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Dia merindu)
Semuanya 'kan OK (Jangan ragu segalanya 'kan berlalu)
Percayalah kerna cinta dunia berputar

2005-10-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

it finally ended! yeay yeay! exams are over - now where shall I start updating? hmmm. ouh for some who may wanna ask, how's the N'levels? it was aye-okay & manageable. oh well. I should have studied MORE. that's all. hahs! but it's useless to regret ryte now so I can just wait up till the results are out. ((: anyways, im quite contented now that it's over and done with.

no more late nights of worrying. no more absorbing facts. no more memorising formulas, chemical equations this, that, shiznats... NO MORE! (: oh yes, school. hahs. I don't need to drag myself to Hougang Secondary School early in the morning anymore UNLESS, I have to go through another year next year, Secondary 5. hmm. I wish. Insya'allah. Let's just hope for the best to turn out of everything la ehs.

I have not much to blog about, really. I'm just not myself these days. To whoever that have recently had a looonnggg talk on the phone with me or heard me crying or saw me with my oh-so-not-nyce-to-see expression, whutever that I said to you, the decisions that I made about some stuffs, well, I really meant every single thing that I said. Although the decision's not final, I still have the remaining two months till 2005 ends to think it over, I might as well let it go for awhile. Somehow the talks that I had with the closest schoolmates and some friends who've been there for me through my most gloomy days & downside of lyfe, made me feel completely better and ready enough to live my life normally.

Lalalalaaa. ok bye. (:

i'm sorry,

2005-10-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

this post is to no offence to anybody though. i heard this song first, on Benni's Creative Zen & I couldn't stop listening to it every single day. it's just the lyrics that eventually HIT me deep down inside. i guess i did went through this stage fer lyke, thrice before.. so yeah. imagine it is actually happening to you, god bless you. gosh. this is just how a heart breaks, ain't it? i dedicate this song to all those lovers out there whose undergoing the heartbreaking stage. and the ex`es who ever did this to me. siape makan chilli, dierlah akan terasa pedasnyer, betol tak?

yet i'm proud to say, whutever comes, DoubleA it is, i'm still in love with him. MyMrVampire(:
I Love You!

Craig David - Don't Love You No More

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately
You've been acting so cold (didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna to talk to me girl (tell me)
Okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
~~I just don't love you no more~~

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cos I let you down
Now it's too late to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I've made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
~~I just don't love you no more~~

I know that I've made a few mistakes
But never thought things would turn out this way
Doesn't make sense to me now that you're gone (I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
~~I just don't love you no more~~

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cos I let you down
Now it's too late to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I've made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
~~I just don't love you no more~~

Those simple words hit so hard
They turned my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On that night you said to me
~~I just don't love you no more~~

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cos I let you down
Now it's too late to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I've made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
~~I just don't love you no more~~

End.

2005-10-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

I Wish I Could Steal All The Stars In The Sky Tonight To Lighten Up My Day

well, i had my N'level English Papers and History Elective Paper today. My goodness!~ I couldn't recall a thing about Japan or Stalin or whutever else even after doing more last minute studying at McD with the gurls and danny-arl. Oh wait, not exactly i couldn't remember nothing at all but there were some... okayy~ facts that i could think of la. hmm. The source-based questions was fairly fine. Thought that i could at least fall asleep for 15minutes or so but the atmosphere in the hall was for goodness sake -hot&humid- so i eventually had to remain patient but to stay awake. aargghhs..

have i really lost you? have i? i don't know. i have no teman malam no more. sadsadstory i guess.

tomorrow's maths paper1 and im oh-so-not studying because basically i hate maths a daymmnn lot kae! nevertheless, i did studied at serangoon just now. was at 308 going through the ten year series and i got danny-arl to accompany me and teach me. hahaha, and im sure he had a hard tyme making me sit still and understand the whole concept. muahaaaa. sabar la eh ngan aku yang stubborn siket nie.

eeyyyy. i soooo am craving for waffle ice-cream since i don't know when. *WINKS* to a certain someone. oittt.. biler seh, biler??? tak sabar nie. but nemmind la, maybe one of the upcomin days and we'll buker puaser and have waffle ice-cream for desert. why not kan? uh'huh. yeayy. yer2 siak isha. toottts.

hmmz. i miss him la. him baby him. where have u been, mydearestofalldearest? nudge me at least? yang ku mahu adelah kamu. bleaarrgghhh.. isshhaaa.. puhleasee laaa. hahax =p

im havin cramps all over seii. pain okaeeee. no wait, i'm havin muscle cramps... my legs.. arrgghh. daymn~ jalan dah terhencot2... kekek siaaa. just now walk the walk with danny-arl and he was recovering from his torn ligament and i was having muscle cramps abeh dua2 jalan terhencot2. bagos la tuu ehh. iisssshh. but i think now the pain is decreasing abit uh. ((: smiles!

anyways, i can't waiiiitttt to fast. i can't waiiiittt for all the stoopid devils to get locked up. go go. dun disturb seh. iissh. i wanna gain something from this year's ramadhan. something worth my tyme, worth my effort and yes, fulfill my duty to GOD and fast every day that i can unless i'm on red-lite la. hahs! (: aiya aiya. can't wait uh. really seh and i don't know why uh. ((: but it isn't a bad thing ryte? it's rather better to feel that way kan? arrr yess (:

okay and i gotta sleep now. i miss my king and qween. miss chatting with the king at msn. HAHAH!!!! (: eeeyeer** gambar da upload but i need to do sumthing to it before posting kaes? wait up for updates. and kakyan!!!! ahahaaaa. loveYou. wheee.

& my prince, as far as i know, u're still the sunshine that have the key to my heart. always and will be so.

to all, goodnight. i'll end here.

2005-10-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

i'm here and back again after a wonderful night from yesterday. here's a long update..

it was fine in the day. went to town with mik gilur (haha. i call u that uh kae) i let out my thoughts, everything that i kept in my mind all these while.. and im glad that that gilur understood every single thing of whut i said. being the nicest and responsive person that i recently talked to, gave me the lot of solutions one could think of, and makin me realise that the decision's all mine. in my hands and of course, with GOD's will. by now as i mentioned yesterday, mik, i know u can already vision me, myself, isha. aaah yess. u've been a good friend, and a patient listener to hear my thoughts out one to one and all the questions unfolds. hahs. at least i know what i don't know then because u explained to me so. (: thanx for dinner.

oh erm yea, saw the sweet fairylyn and her darlin dayne at fareast. and yah. hahaa. okayy (:

after slacking while munching on fries and shrimps at the mini fountain nearby ZARA, took 105 to serangoon to meet my dearest of all dearest, baby. heeeckx. i was early so met one of the bodyguards, danny-arl at 236 as he's the only nearest person that i could think of, to accompany me till my dearest arrives. met him coz i needed my N'level confirmation slip so then we walked thru the pasar malam nearby. there was nothing interesting and every thing was as usual, commonly found at all pasar malam la kaan. hahs! so he temankan because he kesiankan his kawan yang kener jalan sorg2 malam2 la kan to the blk she's supposed to meet her darl. LOLOLOLOL (:

terserempak ngn cutie syazana and her pretty sister. she's the only one who still calls me ICE. that was my nickname as being a some sort of nottie sec2/3 girl whom always had mischievous acts in mind with her groupie and influences?. hahaha. maseh ingt saakk.. mcm2 namer. the old tymes, hishizanadar, pong38 and i fergot whut else. still remember at that tyme, i was with wan, nana with danny-arl.. syaz, dayah, shidah, nini, arham, nizam and.. argghh tak tau da luper. used to lepak at court also... the tingkat 6 carpark while the guys play soccer... leman, hamdan, addin, hish, khai, bopeng, hafiz.. lagi tak tau lah. ahahahhaaa. yes, the olddd tymmmessss. now no more uh. lykee uhh puhlease~

but to conclude, i miss the old tymes too actually. now that next week's gonna be the last week of school, im surely gonna miss them lots. kenaper kalau dulu kiter semua ramai2 boleh rapat sekarang semua dah berpecah belah? hmmmm. tymes have changed. people change. friends. everything. ok now stop and back to the topic.

i wish it's gonna be *doubleA* all the way. gossshh~
nyce breeze and nyce less than 5 mins motorcycle ride before and after,
and yup, the thump(s) because our helmets collided because u speeded?!
hahahaaahahahackx. kekek gilur but cute.
eyy. or was it less than 10mins? because the 2nd one kene wait traffic light? hahaaa.
;) lovely lovely night full of cuddles and sugarsweetkisses.
thanks for the taxi fare. i can't help it but just to say loadsa thanks.
thanks for being there last night. you don't know how much that meant. i love you. =)

2005-09-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

im goin out.
will update when i'm home.
meanwhile, take care everybody.
(: will c ya when i c ya.

2005-09-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

alryte. here i go again. just reached home from school. would lyke to describe it as fun fun fun!! (: did some "eeesssshhh" stuffs in class and hahs! i can't mention whut i did with the malay girls. only part of 4A1 knows.. hehs.

the bodyguards was nowhere to be seen. they escaped from early in the morning, and went bowling.. tak fair!!! met them after school at least so as usual, took 156 with danny-arl to accompany him home and he accompanied me at the bustop while waiting fer 22. aarrhhsss. i can't help feeling sooo stressed at the end because of certain reasons.

met himHimHIM yesterday. it was unexpected and i was in a rush but nevertheless, i had fun. walking... talking... storytelling... this and that of whutever nots. hahaa. smiles of love!

yet my favourite highlight of today was the worth it talk for two whole periods with cikgu. he's lyke the best. he understands us. basically we can just talk to him abt anything that's troubling us or this and that if we're unsecure of sumthing. the topic just now was of DEATH. and to think again, how cikgu interprets death was rather... hmmm.. terrifying?

sekarang kiter masih hidup. maner tau lepas nie kiter... hmm....
yah. so that's all. i have not much say. toodles.

laBORED.

2005-09-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

think i'm gonna finish up this particular box off tissue placed on top of the printer on my computer table.... soon. i mean veri soon. ahhs. i sound pathetic, do i? u guessed it ryte. i'm not even sick. i'm just not in my cheerful mood.

to the ones who tagged, thanx alot. somehow u guyz have managed to make me carve a smile. uh'huh. CARVE. feels as if the day went by so fast and still, there ain't anything YET to make me really smile for good. out of triumph. i wanna be elated for once!

and shucks. i need him so bad. i noe how it feels for u. coz im feelin it ryte now okay. not just ryte now but every moment when i think of u. and erm... every moment seemed really EVERY moment spent. and yes, that's how much u mean to me.

no wait, suddenly i have the urge to eat maggi mee and watch a bollywood movie. call me nuts? ahh sure. anything~ hmmmm. should i? yes arh, i think i should. im bored.

i told you i was sorry, i told you i was wrong.
did i throw this out of focus - or was it just the way we fought?
but it seems to me, we should just forget it.
yes we should. need i plead?

i still care.

2005-09-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

I've been eating quite alot lately. Especially due to the stressful mood I'm going through ryte now. Arhss. Somehow I feel that we just gotta let it go, you know? After all, everything wouldn't have happened if not for our majorly stubborn self. It's never- Maybe It's Just Me or You but underneath it all, it's US. Well I think that phrase kinda work sometymes if it have to. I've always said it... we only have ourselves to blame. If it was my fault then I suppose I shouldn't have let you down. I shouldn't have done this and that until I have to go through this stage again. But no matter how tough tymes are during certain moments for us, I still adore you for who you are and to think it over, after all the things that we've done for each other with the sacrifices each of us had to make just to make this work, don't you think it's all worthwhile? That's how I realise that I just need you because I love you and letting go, is a big ~~No-No~~. Tell me something that I need to know, today?

i'm sorry. again!

2005-09-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

my computer is sick siak. damn it. it's lyke everytyme i switch it on, the boot disk failure thingy will appear on the start screen. kpalehotak dier laaaahhh. that obviously made me so furious since yesterday nyte. dahla tk dpt onlyne..!!!! ibu tried so hard to get this fcuked up computer somehow fixed... but to no avail.

and now at last, it's back to normal. daddy did something to it as well as changed some part of the cpu. aarrrgghh. binget sehhhh.. EESSSHHH!!!! the kenduri just now went fine... din't actually get to see my new... uhmmm.. niece, eh? hahax. went there right after madrasah. as usual, i was tired and all so i fell asleep on the bed in the master bedroom and it was sooo comfortable as it was a water bed as though im floating on water... ahaha. nyce~ but then the cuteCUTE but kinda noisy lil'kuzzins interrupted my sleep. ahahhaa. was fun talkin to the abangsedare yang sudah lamer tak bersua. hahs!

finally, i'm home. and im... clueless? y r u doing this? for real, yesterday the net switch was switched off early. as i was tired, i slept early too due to the tiring day yet i had loadsa fun because of the nyce small burfdae celebration fer baby gurl liyah. kakak loves u! muah muahx! (: one main pic is above... and here's the kuzzins. MY KING & QWEEN! had loaaaddsaaa fun ehh even though kejap jer but still. hehe. i <3 my desktop k!

uh'huh that's it. as for today, the comp went crazy. the bootdisk failure screen appeared again but now everything's fine.

well actually, I'M NOT! because of certain reasons. and i ain't gonna let small happenings get any bigger which can lead us to our next sort of war. i ain't gonna let that happen. maybe u're just too frustrated because i haven't been there for you.. but in a couple of hours tyme, my weekend's gonna end and u're aware of the rush im in since i had to attend my family gatherings ryte? i hope you understand and please dun keep quiet? just let it go can?

and goodnyte. i'm gone from my blogging world tonight. coz i'm waiting for ur reply at msn. yours. onli yours. not others but yours. so long people. have a nyce week at sch, uh'huh?
toodle-loo. oh ya btw, happy birthday hish. semoga panjang umur... berpanjangan ngn shuhada... lagi ape ehh? hahas. whutever good things uh.

& I thought you would understand. But u didn't.

23rdseptember

2005-09-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's 12am ain't it? I've got something VERY IMPORTANT to say/ wish....

Well...
HAPPY BURFDAE ALIYAH!
baby gurl, kakak love u so veri the much okie.
muackx muackx** 2 yrs old redi.
hahhaa. (:

2005-09-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

& i'm home alone. i'm bored. i don't know what to do.

Finally, I went out with Auni today. BULAT! kau kiyooot kau tau taaak. eeessshhh. ajak amek gmbr tknk. step malu. BLUEK. hahahax. so we had a good talk in the bus. glad to see her happy and seeing her smile just lights up my day because lately, both of us have been encountering the same problems... daymn~ i wish it all never started and finally everything have ended. I thank GOD for that. oh yea, it was soooo damn cold kay in the bus as the rain kept pouring down non-stop and heavily~ gosh.

i've just realised sumthing. sumtymes the way u pose when taking pictures or the way u smile is different when u're out with other people which are not the ones that u always hang out with. true? yea. i think so.

Bought the COOKIES i longed for. uhhh YUM. lepas tu da takde keje, i bought Seventeen Magazine to add up to my collection. I have lyke a stack of Seventeen Mags on the side table. Read 'em again yesterday to fill my tyme. Wanted to study but... haiz. I can't study in my stressful mood ryte so i thought... ARGH. forget it lah.

YeayyYipppeeee. I can start fasting redi next week. And i'm officially coming to school tomorrow. For the whole curriculum tyme of course. After 4 days of relaxing & slacking at home. *evil laughs* lyke whuteverr uh kayy. There's Malay period tomorrow. (: wheeee. can fun talk with Cikgu Arizan. AHaHAhHHAa.

My Love is sick. Get well soon, Dear. Truthfully, for the whole tyme while i was walking through Bugis Market just now, he's the only one i was worried about. and i don't know why. it's lyke... i can feel that sumthing's bad gonna happen or have alreadi happened. That clearly proved me right huh. He's sick. Gosh. PleasePleasePlease take care of yerself aite baby. Eat ur meds & ur meals regularly. dun be lyke me sampai... dot dot dot. dahla. taknak cakap. eesshh.

ARGHs. managed to talk to Ina just now. i miss her loads. told her abt whut happened to me fer the past few days. arrrrgghhsss. pape arhs. & i miss my qween & king too. However, most importantly, I miss my grandparents. they're not here... i hope they'll be back during Ramadhan.

EHH BORING tau tak. Been bloghopping and tagging people from just now. And i browsed through my Friendster list... clicked on some of 'em... and i dropped 'em a testi. so sesiape yang bertuah dapat testi2 tu.. hehehe. (:

Aite i'm out.

lyke haiz.

2005-09-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

hey hey. Talking to Auni on the phone ryte now and we're planning abt tomorrow for school. Gonna be damn bored without Danny-Arl around. takde org nak buat aku ketawe mcm org gilur. haish.

Well, i did nothing today. nothing much. as in nothing interesting besides watching Teevee with loadsa stuff goin on and around in my mind. Not again manz. Slept at 3am yesterday as I was talking to Auni again abt her problems and i consoled her and she consoled me. As expected, i woke up at 2pm. lyke whoa~! the latest for this week. hahax.

Right after LadyRed's gone, im gonna start fasting. I gotta pay my debts as well as prepare myself till the fasting month arrive. oohwheee. i so can't wait. Boring seh. I think im out of words already.

Maybe it was just a misunderstanding. I'm never gonna give up. N-E-V-E-R.

lyke that.

2005-09-18T18:08:00.000+08:00

Three Tymes Mistaken. A 3 Piece PunkRock band. Deedee on Lead, Fai on Drums & Dayne on Bass.

Just wanna wish them All The Best for the Power Jam '05 Auditions organized by Power 98. Good Luck Guyz.

Heh. It have always been fun watching their jamming sessions be it at their school or at the studio. Coolness plus ok. Hahs! and my baby's adorable kae when he strums the guitar... and when he sings until the voice all hilang... summore now they jam screamo covers. OOPS! sorrie uh. din't mean to feature him alone uh, im not biased eh. pls eh. lol. Fai is one crazy ass yet charming. he can act so damn good. Ade jerlaa lame jokes diorg. Dayne's a nyce chap too with his Tinky the manager of the band. hahah. cute lah they all. (: will always have my full support ok. hope the picture is fine though.

good luck to them for a start (: heh. anyways, im bored seh. and i suppose today is the day Al-Quran diturunkan dari langit. Hari Nuzul Al-Quran. so, im being respectful for the day sebab tu tak klua. hmmm. daddy's out to the mosque and he'll buy food for us after prayers and the sambutan. i want mee hongkong... kempunan nie. cookies lom lagi dpt sihhh. i want! i want! i want! hahax. giler eh.

Danny-Arl, please please PLEASE take care of urself ok. im damn worried. he tore his ligament during the soccer match last Friday and he only told me lyke at just now. ape je. gotta visit him at his home pat serangoon soon. tak leh seyy camnie. he's one of my bodyguards uh and so, i have to be caring after what him, and the others have done for me. thanx guyz. aku love korang k. well, it's confirmed that im not attending school tomorrow till friday UNLESS, one of the malay gurls calls me and want me to accompany them to school. OR, the other bodyguards misses me and wanna meet me. heeeh. (: oh ya, recall on last friday, when my form teacher said, "alishah, i see u come, danial come. danial vanish, u also vanish." muahahahaa. biaser uh. all for one. one for all pe. mestilar seh, i'm the closest to him in class till the teachers and schoolmates misjudge us for being together. ape jer. LOL.

Anyway, the King & Qween called me earlier. they're watching Dikir Barat Finals. lermaaakkzzzz. favorite kay dK. i wanna watchh seh. but eessshhh. salah hari uh. i want to know the results. Si Anak Seni.. GO GO GO. Kelana & Neng. GO GO GO! hahaaa. all good. i lyke~ eh k la. dunno whut to say redi. i need to upload the sleepover peekchures. toodles.